Hi all, I’ve been perimenopausal since I turned 40, so 2 years now, I’ve really struggled with anxiety, panic and a complete lack of self confidence. I finally saw someone at the Newson clinic after battling with my gp. I’m now on oestrogel, androfeme and cyclogest. Everything had been going great and was feeling a lot more like me and positive for a change but then a few weeks ago my androme delivery went missing and I ended up not having any for 6 days. Within 2 days I felt so tired, my limbs felt like lead and started to feel overwhelmed again. I upped my oestrogel to 5 pumps to try and help and also in this time my progesterone switched to Utrogestan from cyclogest. After just one dose I couldn’t stop crying the next day, I only had it for 3 days as had such an emotional response that I went back on cyclogest. I lowered oestrogel back to 4 pumps and am now 2 weeks back on androfeme. However I feel it’s started a spiral that now won’t stop and feel I’m in a black hole of depression. I feel I am grieving almost with the amount I am crying, I have no control of it and even cried in work meetings. I feel so panicked, am doubting ever single decision I’ve ever made and there feels no end in sight. Do you think this has to do with the altering of my HRT and stopping the androfeme or maybe it’s just a coincidence and I’m seriously depressed . I’m not sure which way to turn. Any advice would be appreciated. Thanks