Hi Lisa, I just wanted to say that I really relate to what you have said here and the kind of mental affects and anxiety you describe, for most of last year I felt like I was rolling down a hill in a barrel, I can't really explain it very well, the hormones really do play a big part. I am not qualified to give advice on your dose but I am on 150 now (have gradually upped it to this) I don;t seem to be a good absorber of estrogen and also they say I believe younger women can need more as going through early menopause. It seems that the therapist was pushing you to talk about things you were not in the headspace for. It can be retraumatising to think back over traumatic events and you need to be at a point where that feels manageable and with a safe person who understands. All you have to do is right now, today and you are doing it, I'm glad you managed to speak to GP and they approved your dose. I hope you feel some benefit from the increased dose soon. And I hope referral helps xx