Since my late 60’s I developed awful health anxiety. Always getting high blood pressure readings at the surgery, with me saying, oh its only anxiety it will be back to normal as soon as I am out of the surgery, this has been going on for years.
Two weeks ago I had a procedure, I was on the table my whole body shaking like a leaf, the doctor looked up and asked if I was ok and I said it’s ‘just anxiety’, he gave me more sedation and wrote in his notes that I was anxious.
That’s how I accept it now, I can’t get rid of it, it’s a curse that in my later years there seems no escape. Acceptance is my only way of dealing with it without doctors wanting to give me drugs, which I refuse but still looking for the magic cure.
