I have had horrendous symptoms for the last 8 years- hot flushes, poor memory, sore joints, dryness, anxiety, extreme irriability and insomnia. Initially I went to the doctor when I was in the perimenopause and was told I would have to wait for any support until I was through the menopause. I have used herbs and Serenty cream to help reduce the symptoms but they have only helped a bit. Over the last three years I have seen three GPs who seemed to know very little about the different HRT available and what is suitable for someone with blood clotting issues. The last GP told me to look on the Menopausematters website and to choose my own medication! It was the GP nurse who referred me to a specialist and only after I asked her to. I am exhausted and struggling to work and I just want to check out of life. I have had enough. I am not meaning to be dramatic but I just don't my life to be like this any more. I don't recognise myself anymore. I have to wait another two months for a telephone consultation on the NHS and I don't think I can wait. If I paid to go privately would I have to keep on paying? Or could I ask my GP to prescribe what has been suggested? I can only afford to pay so much.