Under the guidance of your specialist, you need to formulate a plan.
Whether it be to stick with the patch for 3 months, stabilize on an anti depressant, try CBT or counselling etc.
I also think you need a period of time off work. Your job must be very demanding? Just because you took 3 months off last year, that surely can’t mean that they would discipline you for taking further time off?
Your mental and emotional health is very fragile right now Vicky and you are also very young for such a high dose of hormones. Are they monitoring your Oestrogen levels carefully, against progesterone etc? Seriously, hormones are not to be messed with ( trust me, I’ve done a ton of that !) and whilst you had a good day in the week, you are very up and down and I wonder whether Broadmoor is the right place for you at the moment?
It’s entirely your call obviously, but as an outside looking in, I would try and take some time away from work in that first instance.
Are your other symptoms any better? Sweats etc? Is anxiety your remaining symptom?
Xxx