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[Gnatty]

Hi Nas, if you need to be up early just take it earlier in the evening. I know you know this but try and be consistent to give it it's best chance of making a difference. X

[Nas]

I will try Gnatty, I’m hopeless at consistency ( as you can tell!)
Tonight I’m back on track ! X

[VictoryV]

Hi Nas, about driving and taking the longer route, I think that’s the best way for you right now. Take the path that is kindest to ourselves. We are struggling with enough.

Today I’ve had to take the easiest option on a mobile phone as I’ve delayed upgrading it and it’s now got half a screen, doesn’t hold charge and the speaker is packing up. I hate buying phones but gave in and bought an iPhone which is 3 times what a Samsung would cost. I can’t take on the stress of converting my phone data from Apple to Android so chose the easiest and more expensive option. This choice has left me feeling old and ‘past it’ as tech stuff doesn’t usually bother me but I need simple/no stress/ kindness etc.

Where’s a teenager when you need one? 

[CLKD]

 .  ? helping me with my new phone ? 

Oh give me a pen, paper, envelope and stamp 

[Nas]

Victoria, you are right. I will just have to drive ‘my way’for now. I can’t do much more than that.

I am totally with you on the tech stuff! I also need a new phone and know that whatever I get, will cost me at least 3 times more than
what I pay now! Sometimes we just need to take the easy option eh? I’ve got two teens here, both adding fuel to my driving disaster by wanting lifts!! 🤦‍♀️🤦‍♀️

Gnatty, do you think if i re start the mirtazapine I can get to a better place anxiety wise? I just have to get the driving back on track and not feel a bag of nerves each time a tractor comes in the opposite direction. I can’t believe this anxiety has shot my brain to pieces like this??
 

[Gnatty]

Hi Nas, if you don't try it I guess you'll never know. I can only tell you that for me it was a game changer. Why don't you make the decision to stick with it for a few weeks? Your doctor that prescribed it must think it will help. The only thing that's certain is if you take it some nights and not others you'll surely end up in a worse place as your body won't know which way is up! It's a bit like starting HRT and endlessly fiddling with the dose, you never learn what suits. Consistency and patience is key. I know this as I made all those mistakes previously. Tell a trusted person your decision and ask them to encourage you/ give you reassurance. As you said yourself this is an ideal time for you, during half term.
At the end of the day Nas, how bad is your anxiety, are you coping or do you need help? My anxiety as I have said was through the roof and I would have taken anything to make it go away.

[VictoryV]

Nas, how about taking the Mirtazipine for the rest of half term break and at least get 7 days of sleep under your belt? Practise taking it at earlier times and having a strong coffee ready for if you feel groggy in the morning. Getting sleep consistently is only going to help and you can make the decision of whether you want to stay on it with a rested head.
Gnatty’ s right, it’s not going to work without consistency and you’ll know a bit more in 7 days and the half term opportunity is perfect!
If my anxiety returns I’m going to be looking at AD’s as my life was over; I couldn’t cope with anxiety simmering away.
X

[Suzysheep]

Nas,
I would recommend taking the  martazepine and sticking with it. Like gantry says, it won’t do you any good chopping and changing it as it’s not designed to be taken as a one off. It needs time to build up and stabilise in your system.
Honestly, I think it will be the best thing you can do for yourself xx

[Nas]

You are all right of course.
Consistently is absolutely key.

Gnatty, I guess the anxiety is bubbling away most days. I’m very jumpy and on edge. But also feel quite overwhelmed with life ( stuff to do with the house, driving issues, needing a better paid job etc etc )
Some days are better than other for sure, but my HRT isn’t stable yet ( not absorbing my patch).

Victoria, I hear you re the anxiety. It isn’t good and it needs tackling head on, especially if I’m to look for other jobs.

Suzy, I hope you are right and things look a bit brighter soon. I never wanted to cave in and take medication but not got much choice. If mirtazapine doesn’t do anything, then I will try the next!

Xxxx

[Suzysheep]

It’s not caving in Nas, don’t think of it like that… it’s giving you some calm and breathing space whilst your hormones sort themselves out.
I’ve got everything crossed for you that it brings you relief xx

[Nas]

Morning all,
Well the mirtazapine gave me THE most horrid vivid dreams!
Quite disturbing in fact. I wasn’t sure I was even asleep.
Oh dear 
Do I continue ?

[VictoryV]

Morning Nas,

I’m getting them too! Really graphic stuff, my front teeth were snapped off in night before’ s dream!
I’d keep going. Do you feel shattered like you’ve had no sleep? I thought dreaming was a sign of deep sleep but I’m not sure 

[Nas]

Victoria, the dreams were horrific.
Graphic is a an understatement!
We are talking about being attacked by killer bees and the second I won’t even mention as too awful.

I feel quite disturbed now. Not to mention shattered.


 

[VictoryV]

Hi,
I think it’ll pass. I just read this on National Institute of Neurological Disorders:

Dreaming

Everyone dreams.  You spend about 2 hours each night dreaming but may not remember most of your dreams.  Its exact purpose isn’t known, but dreaming may help you process your emotions.  Events from the day often invade your thoughts during sleep, and people suffering from stress or anxiety are more likely to have frightening dreams.  Dreams can be experienced in all stages of sleep but usually are most vivid in REM sleep.  Some people dream in color, while others only recall dreams in black and white.
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I don’t remember dreaming in almost 3 decades of insomnia but since sleeping I do. I definitely think getting sleep has helped my anxiety.

Can you go back to bed for an hour’s rest?

V.x

[Nas]

Yes the dreams were  very odd indeed.

On a plus, I don’t feel as drunk as I did the other day.

Does your Hrt sort your anxiety then Victoria? I wish mine did.

Just started femeston conti Hrt tablet today. God alone knows what lies ahead with that!

Time to get some jobs done o guess.... xxxxx