Sorry, just seen you answered and I left the window open, walked the dog and clicked 'post' without checking!
Annoyingly gynae has sent me a script for Zoely, but I'd been chasing to speak to her, I fear I'm getting the brush off (usually happens eventually, nobody knows what to do with me!) and had hoped to talk this through, maybe she's busy and i'll get a reply to my plaintive cries for help next week. So yikes, that's going in a drawer for a bit until I'm more stable. I still haven't quite figured out the logic of giving histamine sensitive women estrogen yet, I get to suppress, but not sure how we're meant to get enough on board for it to do its job without flushing myself down the loo before that happens ... This week has been the worst its ever been in terms of ramped up jitters, I'm still vibrating now.
Better for a long walk, some outside jobs on the yard, and meditation - also put relationships tussles with boyf's ex in loving brackets and parked that for the time being, he'll just have to wait, can't stay employed, upright, and function at all AND get sucked into someone else's drama, got enough of my own!!
Hear you Crispy, I'm considering chucking in the towel on hormones for a bit and going back to 7 doses of utro, alternate nights, second half of my cycle and just sucking it up for a bit ... I'm feeling battle weary after the last 18 months of up and down (it's the good patches that kill me, I'm used to feeling shite, it's the patches where I think I'm finally free of it that just destroy me when I crash).
xx