Hi all,
Stupid question since death is inevitable, but you get what I mean...
So fed up, so fed up, so fed up.
So many symptoms I can't keep track anymore. Some leave and I feel great one day, then the next a new one is added on to the already exisiting symptoms - I can't live this way.
So last night, I was woken up shivering, heart racing and uncontrollable shaking it was quite extraordinary...My legs had a mind of it's own (restless leg?), hands shaking like I have parkinsons. Crazy! I was extemely cold and had no idea what was going on,but it was so scary. It finally simmered down after a good 10 minutes, yet my heart seems to have been racing all night and onset of nausea straight away. I have been constantly checking my pulse and no sign of pulse rate slowing. I've only had 2 hours sleep today, it's a nightmare.
I used to enjoy sleeping, but every night it's like death has come to visit me. Now I'm anxious just going to my bedroom.
I have a chest x-ray tomorrow and I'm truly convinced that they will find something wrong with m lungs and/or heart or cancer spread throughout my vital organs, I don't know, but I feel like my time is up. Something isn't right.
What to do, how to get through tonight. Will it be a repeat sccenario, I'm so frightened of the night nowadays. I miss the nice feeling of sleep and enjoying the comfort of my bed