I don't have trouble with aloneness as I live alone and with not being back to work yet could probably do with less of it! I'm an open book anyway and probably overshare, I'm not exactly a private person.
Yeah, I'm not private with friends, but they are all out of town. Its not something that bothers me all the time, but I have been increasingly aware that there are precious few places to be alone anymore.
Yesterday I went into Boots (ok I know I won't be alone in there but just giving an example of how people are). I walked in and I had 2 things in my hand from superdrug. I caught the lady's eye in Boots and said 'I just got these from superdrug, just so you know.' I was friendly, had a smile. She gave me such a filthy look. I followed it up with 'well don't ask me about them later then, I have no receipt.' (still friendly). Then she changed her tune and joked, 'well if you want to shop with them.' We all laughed, me, her, the queue. It was ok, I know people will be tetchy, especially working in a shop at a time like this. But one woman at the back of the queue took it upon herself to stare at me like I'd committed a crime and also like why wouldn't I move on (I wouldn't because I was looking for something on a shelf, but I was 2 metres away from her and I know what 2 metres is).
I think a lot of people are feeling weird, my neighbour who needs people constantly said that people look at her like she's got the plague (she's a very well dressed, smart, clean person). It's just what it is at the moment. But the lack of privacy in general is very salient to me right now. To get to my car I have to walk past 2 pubs and invariably there are blokes sitting there like lions surveying the savannah, then walk past a cafe with everyone smartly dressed sat outside. And sometimes I just want to walk about in scruffy gear
I think it's my fault for moving to a town centre flat, lol