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[Redlocks]

Am I a failure if I cannot think my way out of anxiety?
I feel I should be stronger but I'm so scared and don't understand what's happening to me.
I'm sorry I'm such a pain - the HRT and fluoxetine are not stabilising me at the moment and I feel desperate. I feel convinced I won't ever snap out of this

[Redlocks]

I just wanted to say to everyone I'm sorry for starting all these topics about the same thing, i.e. my situation. It isn't fair as so many are suffering, so I will just respond to those who have replied to the other topics I set up.
Again, my apologies - panic makes it very hard to think rationally.
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[CLKD]

Stick to 1 if you can.   

[Redlocks]

Thanks for the big hug CLKD! I won't start any new discussions, just had a panic attack that lasted pretty much all of yesterday and I wasn't able to think :/
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[Tinkerbell]

How are you feeling today?

[Redlocks]

Hello Tinkerbell
Exhausted after yesterday but not quite as panicky. If this is hormonal then I officially hate hormones!
How are you? The women on here are so supportive and lovely

[CLKD]

Moves to the other thread 

[Tinkerbell]

Panic attacks are awful you do have my sympathy,  i have had a couple in my adult life, thought i was going to get one when we were all herded off a tube train a couple of months back. I have been quite fortunate meno wise apart from the awful VA which has been my main symptom.
Pleased to hear you are less panicky today.

[Redlocks]

Thank you Tinkerbell
At the moment I'm experiencing so many emotions in quick succession and it's exhausting!! One minute feeling much happier, maybe even hyper, then frustrated, angry, sad, depressed, bit nervous then really panicky...it goes on. It is very much like the last time I changed my dose but this time I'm more withdrawn. I really hope my consultant can guide me on Friday :/ X
Ps: I'm so glad your menopause hasn't been too bad (relatively) and that not everyone is suffering - that gives me hope!

[CLKD]

Take a list with you to discuss!

[Redlocks]

I will! I'm putting together a list of pros and cons. It seems to be mainly cons right now tbh, and I'm so tempted to quit HRT altogether and just stick to the antidepressants while looking at other options.
But another part of me is telling me that if I give up after all this time I might regret it!
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[Redlocks]

Thank you, clio51
I last increased my Prozac dose nearly three years ago. Antidepressants do help a lot, but at the moment it seems that the HRT is possibly stronger as I'm struggling to get much relief.
I can particularly relate to your last sentence as well - I just want to be able to sit still again, is that too much to ask lol? 
I felt normal again last night and, like clockwork, terrible this morning!!
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[CLKD]

Evenings are often my best time too.  Mornings can be hell  probably because my body lacks energy .......... answered your other thread too 

[Redlocks]

I'm with you both on mornings! And that's exactly how I feel, clio51.
When I'm in a good place I generally look forward to mornings because I can get on with things, even if I'm not good at getting up early.
When I'm like this, I'm sure some of it is habit but it feels very physical.
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[Redlocks]

If I could summarise my pattern, almost like a simple equation, it would be:
Anxiety-thoughts-more anxiety-loss of appetite-more anxiety and depression...such a vicious cycle, and I feel paralysed with fear and scared to leave my bed even though I know doing things sometimes makes me feel better. I lose my inner drive that usually gets me through the day.
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