Hi wobbles noooooo i didnt think anything! I totally get you. Im with you. And youre no crackpot. Im not neither. Ive decided to stop putting myself down too for feeling as i feel and querying and procrastinating and everything bloody else. So what if i, we, have been repeating ourselves and seeking answers (i have !!) , thats ok, is just part of the unfortunate trip.
Last thing we need on top of this sh**load of stuff is our lovely selves being beaten up and put down by ..well..ourselves !!! So enough of the self name calling eh, we are just trying to navigate and god its a scary trip. Lucky are those who feel amazing from hrt, im not ever going to diss it but at the moment im struggling. Id like to say i was VERY in tune with my body pre hrt, knew my hormonal fluctuations were powerful shizzle - im just wondering now whether the added hrt right now may just be that bit TOO much...right now. (Not to rule out ever trying again should i stop for a bit and re evaluate). But....i also didnt feel THAT great before and swore estrogen was the missing link !!!!
Keep sharing and i, we, will all be here to catch your fall and try prop you back up best we can ! X