See that bed rest racjen, its probably doing you the power of good....lots of us who feel so overwhelmed have mega responsibilities...now please don't take this the wrong way...we also feel responsible for things we shouldn't feel responsible for...I know I do. I have a job in insurance which means renewal dates are fixed, there is no way round them and things need to be done by that date and that is it but it takes over my whole life and has done for 2 years because I am self employed and there is no one to delegate to plus the office is in the house. I have never managed to switch off at 5 to "have my own life"...everything just expands to fill the space. Work, sick and dead relatives (seemed to be more than my fair share, if there is such a thing as a fair share
), difficult children, household chores, money....as women the list can go on and on.. and on..
We are told over and over that we shouldn't feel so responsible and I think the key is to ask for help more...cos I think that we feel we have failed if we have to ask for help maybe
but we haven't failed at all....we have just reached out limits which are far above average usually.
Being able to physically distance yourself so that you can give your head some space (although you haven't stopped thinking about it all have you??xxx) is good but its been going on for so long it would take a while to recover a bit.
The ladies are right...a total detox would be good except for your provera and oestrogen to see how you fair (I'm not sure having got onto them that you should ditch those...) but we are sending our love and positive thoughts...I wish I could come and see you too xxxx
