Bad day.
Just want to vent
Can physical and mental symptoms of menopause or oestrogen deficiency occur all at once? Like when Oestrogen hits rock bottom and all hell breaks loose
Been getting better over these three weeks. Now I'm in a mess. All was well till 5pm.
I've had no sex drive or sexual urges below since I started HRT 3 weeks ago and my confidence has been growing with every day. Bc the whole sex drive sex urge the literal *need* for sex was terrifying.
I felt I was due to start my period when I started Oestrogel. Instead of waiting I started oestrogel.
It's been 3 weeks ish since I started Oestrogen still applying 300mg cyclogest (Progesterone) daily as I reduced to come off it.
My boobs have grown bigger each day I'm now getting spots appetite increased last couple of days and the dreaded sex drive is back,(I used to get a little horny before my period but not like this!)
I begged for sex then cried after for feeling so ashamed for being like that. He said “later†and I demanded it! That's not me...I hate feeling like a hostage to my vagina..I don't know who I am anymore.,he must be wondering the same thing.
I feel like I'm due to start period after missing it when I first started.
I'm terrified the physical urges will return again..and if they do does that mean oestrogen is causing it (?)
My back (sciatica) and restless legs have kicked in BIG TIME as I lie in bed..crying....I can't lie flat on my back due to sciatica and my legs are hurting and restless. It's strange in the sense both start out of no where then go away... is it possible that's bc of hormone fluctuations?
I've read a link that oestrogen softens ligaments causing back pain.. like in pregnancy. Can't win! Both of the above ststted when I had my melt down 7 weeks ago..that drove me to HRT
I tried to increase my Oestrogel again after failing a week ago
From 2 pumps to 2 and a 1/2 (3 pumps made me feel jittery)
The back and leg pain started after I applied 1/mp tonight. Plus I feel tight chested and jittery like I did when I upped to 3 pumps.
I rubbed it on the inside of my arm....not sure why as I normally apply to the inside of thighs.
Wonder if applying it to my vein has made me absorb it too fast.
I feel wide awake despite it being 12. Insomnia is likely. Had to turn off heating I was hot, palpitations. All things that happen before my period normally.
