Hi roseenglish - to be honest I really think you should continue to give the Tiblone a go. A few days will not help at all. It needs at least a fortnight and maybe 3 weeks to give any indication of how it may help you. In terms of being post meno - I was prescribed it in the cross over period when they didn't know if I was still peri or post as I had been on hrt since age 47, it was difficult to tell. Too much progesterone is not good for the body. I know you are feeling really weird right now but you do need to give yourself time to work out what is actually going on otherwise it's hard to describe to the professionals and it is hard to work out what is actually the right course of action. I completely understand whilst all this is going on you just want it to stop but it's not going to unless you can work out what is happening and take the appropriate action. I have had to take hrt for 3 months when I have thought it possibly wasn't the right thing but at least it has allowed me to keep a diary and then I have been able to work out from here and with the doctors what IS the right thing or got closer too it. Chin up keep going, things will settle but the answers don't come quick
I know.
Okay here's the thing. Only THIS morning I was in the deepest despair. SOOO tuned into my vag waiting for the next sensation or asking myself '"Is it there?" It became an obsession and I KNEW I was going to MAKE it happen from obsessing about it...I was spiralling
Last night I had 5 hours broken sleep which I blamed the new HRT on and was aroused and terrified as normally sleep is my escape from this symptom in the 1 week I have had it. I was in a very dark place this morning convinced now I would be anxious and awake every night. I even telephoned MIND but of course what can they say? I was just totally defeated and afraid and had no hope no future that I wanted any part of. The weekend was bad I spent it led in bed curtains closed just on my tablet researching, crying, desperate to find others that had what I have that did NOT have that dreaded PGAD
Then around 3pm something just clicked. My perspective changed and my mood lifted, just like that. I looked online and booked a private appointment with a gynaecologist local to me. I have also have telephone appt with a Menopause Specialist Nurse tomorrow.
I decided the only thing i know for SURE is I am peri menopause and fast approaching menopause. What ever my symptoms are they are linked to hormones.
Then I went to the toilet and I had bleed and I had that: "ah ha!" moment. My inability to rationalise this symptom for the last 7 days was down to a severe case of PMS. I never really know when I am due on these days I go off my symptoms and this period has been VERY intense.
The last two periods I had stomach cramps from bowels and the runs (never had that in my life) This period I had the most intense hunger so annoying my stomach was constantly churning and twisting for food despite my anxiety. It was so annoying as I did not want to eat anything at all but my stomach would not settle without constant food. I was having hot flushes, breasts were especially achy, I had spots, it was like PMS x 10 PLUS I had proper stomach cramps which I have not had for years either. The insomnia I have had last night is also a very old PMS symptom I have not had for 3 ears.
I USED to have a feeling of sexual desire before my period many many years ago and actually having a sexy dream was a sure sign I was due on my period. This happened last night for the first time in 2 years but I did not connect the dots. I just assumed it was all part of these new urges/feelings and it added to the anxiety.
I have been spotting for 2 weeks on and off but was not sure I was due on a period until I saw the blood and it was a huge relief. I have got cramps, my skin around my bottom and vagina feels like its sunburnt and I am sore inside my cervix area like cramps bit vaginal (thats a peri menopause PMS symptom I never used to have before hitting 40) and I am STILL staving hungry despite eating all day.
I climbed on my partners lap and I wanted sex so did he but we're both so afraid of aggravating anything ! How sad is that? I have self diagnosed myself to treat my symptoms to be PGAD when I may just be having a strong sexual desire after so many years. I was horny all night eating dinner but I did not get upset or stress out about it even as I held my puppy because it's NOW it feels like my body trying to tell me to make love before the ovaries shut down. NOW it feels like I remember it. What I had prior was like spasms or twinges little niggles but they did not want me to make love at all. Where as now I feel naturally horny like I used to when me and my partner first got together.
Maybe the odd sensations were a build up to this (?) After so many years of being closed down and totally void of action maybe it was "jump starting" me?
I dont know. Its a theory. Today in terms of those specific symptoms has been the best day since it started. I have just felt naturally aroused after holding my partner and being caressed. It passed in 15 minutes after we got on with dinner.
I HOPE its just one of those strange meno symptoms that will pass. I dont mind having a high libido for the first time in my life but I needed to know if what I was feeling was actually just that or something more sinister. Time will tell. xx