I'm bowing out of the forum now, Kathleen but wanted to just leave you this:
https://www.eurekalert.org/pub_releases/2012-01/sicp-tio010912.phpEstrogen's effects are complex and every individual - their psychological makeup and biochemistry - behaves differently. For some, estrogen can lift depression but for others (as mentioned in this article) it can actually increase feelings of fear.
We really are all different, and this is one of the reasons that i'm leaving again as I believe that there are quite a few women who pass through here who will not benefit from the 'cookie cutter' advice of increasing estrogen, and for these women it can make them feel despairing if they are not responding to treatments as others are.
As you know, I've been doing this menopause thing for quite a while now, and I probably have quite a way to go too. In my travels, I have met women who do brilliantly on good doses of estrogen, others who find it sends them bonkers. Some who simply can't stand any fluctuation no matter how small on any HRT regime, and others who can actually forget to apply a patch or gel with minimal discomfort. I've also met women who love progesterone - and some who do brilliantly on progestogens and love a conti regime.
Also there are those who have very low estrogen levels, take nothing at all and are doing very well indeed (yes - it's true. I've actually met them in the flesh)!
We really are all that diverse!
If I could say one thing, it would be listen to what your body is telling you and work with a consultant or GP who knows your history and can see you face to face to monitor your progress. Forums are handy and can be brilliant for support, but I don't think they are the place to receive advice from 'lay experts' on what to put into your body. That's what the real professionals are for!
Speak with your consultant, and lay out your issues plainly. Tell her you're struggling, and mention all and any symptoms and take it from there. In the meantime, do see your GP and tell them how you're struggling with the dreadful anxiety - they are there to help too and will want to support you. Book a double appointment if you think you need to, so that you're not rushed.
I really do wish you all the best, Kathleen - yours has been a long and tough struggle.
Good luck! xxxx