Hi guys x I am 5 says off being 50 and have been going through peri for a couple of years. Doc put me on patches about 3 months ago, which I am not feeling any effects of as yet.
I suffered from depression before meno and it has got even worse, major anxiety and panic attacks are frequent. I feel like I am just an onlooker to whats happening to me. Emotionally I am a wreck, having caused major marital problems 4 yrs ago, I am still trying to make amends and be the best I can be but my emotional state trashes everything. I have nobody to confide in apart from hubby and he is still dealing with the trauma i caused.
Somedays I want to curl up and hide from the world, not gonna happen. I have to talk it out and make the effort to be normal.
I have forgotten what normal is, I want me back not this train wreck I have become. It feels like nobody understands how this affects everything.
Am sorry to ramble, not a good day today. Maybe tomorrow will be better xx
