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[puddlesmum]

Arrrgghhhhhhh. I ruddy knew it was coming.  Just as I ovulate again this month anxiety has yet again smacked me straight in the face. Although last time felt bad, I didn't have too many body zaps and managed to sleep well but it's like it's too soon to go back through it again. I was going great guns the last 3 weeks, really looking forward to Christmas, getting everything wrapped, online shopping, writing cards, getting back into writing then it goes and smacks me again.  I really don't think I can cope with this much longer.

These last few years have been hell, what with my OHs tongue cancer, coping with all that, and then the worsening of the anxiety, my Mum going into a care home, it's all so draining. I now see the pattern, but it's not making me feel any better, in fact it's making me dread it even more.  I just don't know what to do anymore.

I've asked the doc if I can swap ADs but he's more concerned that I'll struggle with withdrawal from Seroxat than putting me on another one. The mental health team were supposed to see me and I've been on the waiting list for the last 6 months, yet I've heard nothing. My OH calls them and I get told I'm still on the waiting list and just have to wait my turn. It's the shivering this time round that's floored me. I have been sitting in my living room, heating on full wrapped in a wrap AND a fleece blanket but still feel like I'm freezing and that makes me fall asleep. I'm literally falling asleep sitting up at the drop of a hat. I hate it. I really hate it.  And I'm struggling right now as I'm so fed up with it.  I'm just hoping that with it getting worse the last 2 years that it's finally coming to an end so I'll hang on, but it's so damn difficult. 

Just needed a rant, sorry ladies.

[CLKD]

Has your GP done a thyroid function test as people can feel cold if levels are low, also my VitD levels were low and I was really tired for weeks.

You rant.  Does you good ;-).  In the 1990s I was on the Waiting List for mental health services for 18 months  .  Check on line to see if there is a MIND Charity walk-in service near to you, they were helpful to me 2 years ago.  Tell your GP that you have yet to be seen, there is also 'minds together' I think started by Prince Harry. 

[puddlesmum]

I'll ask about the thyroid test CLKD as I don't think they've done one of those on me for quite a while.

I'll fire an email off to my doctor and see what he says.  Just sometimes I need to let it all out and this is the only place where no one judges you.

xx

[Mary G]

puddlesmum, sorry to hear that you have had a setback, can you remind us, are you still on 2 pumps of Oestrogel?  It could be that you are similar to Gypsy Rose Lee and need to override your cycle by using 4 pumps.

What did Professor Studd recommend?

[dangermouse]

It may be a 2 year thing as I've been bad for 2 years and the last few weeks I'm having the surging oestrogen all through the month, still worse at mid cycle but it could be where everything comes to a head before periods stop. I've also had the shivering like I'm in shock and falling asleep like I'm passing out. Had a few odd hours with burning hot back which makes anxiety better so wonder if that's oestrogen falling now and again, like hot flushes. I mainly have the shivers though and can only warm up if have a bath.

[Peri-wrecked]

Hi Puddlesmum, sorry you are going through this. I too have the anzietu when I ovulate and got it this month quite badly befor my period and still have it. Its awful.
Dangermouse, I also have the burning back accompanied by what I csn only describe as air bubbles in my chest. I used to get flutters but this is different. Its exhausting feeling so miserable. 
I'm not on hrt as im considered too young to be in peri at 35. My sister who is 37 is current experiencing dizziness and migraines before her periods. She has flooding periods and I have scant 1 day periods. Its very confusing. I think I might be ahead of her in the game due to having smoked like a trooper for years.I'm off them almost 3 years now. But still I think I'm in peri.
Its awful time in life and knowing I have ma.y more years of misery to go. Its awful

[puddlesmum]

puddlesmum, sorry to hear that you have had a setback, can you remind us, are you still on 2 pumps of Oestrogel?  It could be that you are similar to Gypsy Rose Lee and need to override your cycle by using 4 pumps.

What did Professor Studd recommend?

He said I can't go up to 4 at the moment and wants me to stay on 3 pumps and make another appointment with him as he should have seen me 6 months ago. I've got to save up again to see him so will do that in the new year.

These 10 days floor me. I'm a wreck compared to what I am not going through this. My therapist also now sees the pattern as as soon as she walked in yesterday seeing me crying said "Ovulating?" so it's like my thing now. Really annoying especially with only a few weeks to Christmas and I was looking forward to it yet now I'm a gibbering wreck again.  I've been in tears today because my hubby is off out to a head and neck cancer support group, yet I've begged him not to go as I feel so scared. Ordinarily I'd be pushing him out the door to get help.

These last 2 years though have definitely been the worst it has ever been for me. I could practically handle anything but nope, this just throws me under the train.

[JJ65]

Am feeling exactly same right now bubbles in chest shaky just awful day 5 of progesterone femoston 2/10 been about 2 or 2.5 yrs feet burning cant keep still in bed so get up am exhausted ! Had thyroid test was normal doctor has agreed to put me on patches on monday 😥 JJ65

[GypsyRoseLee]

Oh bless you. I remember feeling so chilled and shaky despite several layers and CH on high. I also used to get diarrhea too and a rapid heartbeat. It used to make me feel dreadful and yes, wanting to throw myself under a bus.

But the anxiety was the worst. I wasn't anxious as in worrying about stuff. I just felt physically and mentally very frightened, and full of dread.

To be honest 3 pumps did little to help and it was only when I upped to 4 that everything got better and better. But at the same time I also increased to 100mg of sertraline, so not sure which was the magic bullet? Maybe it was both.

I really feel for you. Please keep us posted.

[Mary G]

puddlesmum, if things get really desperate and you feel you can't cope, why not contact Professor Studd again and state you are in crisis and could you increase your Oestrogel dose to 4 pumps immediately?

I'm sure he would understand.  How are your gel supplies?