Hi Twoodie, I really feel for you as I have been through pretty much exactly the same. 7 months ago I started feeling sick, dizzy, weak, tingling in arms and legs and lost my appetite, I thought it was caused by a tooth abscess but now I know different! I was so anxious and stressed out at how ill I felt I ended up in hospital for 4 days, I have to date lost 3 stone in weight within the last 7 months, have had endoscopy, CT scans, Ultrasound, every blood test you can think off and am still seeing a Gastroenterologist who referred me to Endo, Neuro and Immunologist because he couldn't explain many of my symptoms. My symptoms got worse and then came many more of them! Belching, vomiting, burning stomach, extreme fatigue, feeling drunk, faint, trembling inside, off balance bumping into things, visual disturbances, brain fog, insomnia, muscle weakness, rosacea, dry hair and skin, adrenaline jolts waking me up throughout the night, breathlessness, muscle tension, head zaps and then came the drenching night sweats!! (This for me was the final realisation it could be hormonal )
I thought I was going insane, several GP's gave me antidepressants which made me feel 10 times worse as my body just could not tolerate even the tiniest amount! So they all went in the bin! TBH It has been the most horrific thing I have ever experienced in my life and I could not in million years have imagined it would be menopause as I had a Hysterectomy 21 years ago when I was 31 including removal of ovaries and had been using Oestrogel HRT ever since which had served me very well. I did not know that at some point I would still have to go through another 2nd menopause 21 years later! So I completely understand how desperate you feel...
I still have bad days mostly in the mornings but am getting better and you will too, just take each day as it comes and try to focus on the fact that it is your hormones and not a mental illness and that you will come through this. I have recently been to see a Kinesiologist who has seen this happen so many times when menopause kicks off. She has put me on supplements to support my adrenals as she says during this period it's the adrenals that are in crisis. She has also put me on a paleo diet and I have to say I have been feeling so much better these last couple of weeks, I'm still trying to find the right dose of Oestrogel as the dose I have always been on is now (my GP thinks) too much for me, one due to age and two due to the extreme weight loss. If you have lost a lot of weight the body just sucks up the HRT too quickly leaving you feeling dreadful, when you have more fat on the body the Oestrogen gets more absorbed into the fat cells rather than surging around in your blood stream.
It sounds like your HRT is not right for you but I'm no expert. Finding the right dose and type is such an individual thing but you will get there. One of the things that has helped me the most is a magnesium supplement that my Kinesiologist gave me called SYNERGY BODY PRIME it has enabled me to sleep really well and calmed down the internal trembling. It's quite expensive but worth every penny!
Alesia x