Hi Hurdity
Thank you so much for your reply, just seeing your words made me feel like I wasn't going crazy!
I'm 45 now. I unexpectedly lost my father 18 months ago and initially put my mood changes down to grief but when the flushes started towards the end of last year, then the night sweats etc I realised it was something more. When I first went to my GP I was sent for my umpteenth transvaginal scan - I was told I had a lump in the lining of my womb. So I was told I couldn't go on HRT. So I was put on Fluoxetine, which gave me initial high's then quickly turned to low's. Six weeks later I had another scan only to be told there was no lump. Eventually I was put on Femoston 1/10, all the GP asked was if I was using contraceptive. She didn't say anything about stopping it, what one I was on, or even when to start taking the HRT. I had been put on Cerazette 5 yrs ago due to heavy bleeds. I remember that I started taking the Femoston mid-way through my contraceptive pill, I was told to start it immediately.
As the months have gone on I knew something wasn't right but I thought I was going through depression from grief, surgery and a few other factors, but I trusted that the HRT would start working at some point. So 4 weeks ago I suffered what I can only describe as a mental 'snap'. Resulting in seeing another different GP, being referred to the mental health team and then being prescribed Mirtazapine.
After yet another complete breakdown, resulting in the crazy self harm, I went to the Pharmacist armed with the tablets. It was such a relief when he immediately said I shouldn't be on the POP with Femoston, but I'm finding it hard to trust any medical professional now (the ventural mesh was stitched into me 10 years ago - resulting in 5 further ops to remove scar tissues and ongoing investigations - eventually having it removed as it was tearing through my bowel wall - the last op saved me from a perforated bowel, then being told it didn't appear I needed the mesh anyway as there was no evidence of a pelvic prolapsel!).
Today I phoned my surgery at 8am for an emergency appointment, was told I was put on a call back list, called 3 further times chasing them, by 6.30 I never received a call back - very frustrating.
So yes I will look at alternative treatments for my peri-menopause. The last scan showed one of my ovaries as still being active and the other not active. It's a minefield but this site is a life savour, and so are people like you who take the time to help out. Hopefully my experiences might help others in future. I'll keep you posted!!
Thank you again
