Thanks so much for the long reply Hurdity, really appreciate it.
The short-term plan with my gynae (who is amazing - calls me regularly to check in), is to not take a monthly break from the Utrogestan, to monitor this with regards to lining thickness and with a view to reviewing in 3 months time. This is to allow my pain to settle. Which it was doing before I missed the 2 utrogestan and gave myself a bleed. More importantly, and I feel this is what really helped the (bladder? Uterus?) pain and urinary urgency/frequency was the topical oestrogen. Given my POF status, the plan was to use Vagifem daily for a month (not 2 weeks) and then reduce. My month was up this week and I had 3 days of no Vagifem. Big big mistake!
The plan was to slowly introduce the hormones rather than stick me directly on the 75 Estradot patch. I can't remember what I mentioned before on here (I don't remember what I did 5 mins ago!) - I'm now 34, only ever had 3 periods (all while on holiday!) and at 20 my hormonal profile was post-menopausal. In my 20s I was pushed (bullied!!) into taking the pill. My gynae now says what on earth where they thinking! The pill flooded my body of empty hormones with a load of synthetic hormone that was far too high a dose, and made me depressed, and on occasion, suicidal. So it's slow and steady approach this time, that has been working wonderfully. I actually feel really good on HRT. Anyway, I had just increased the Estradot to 75, missed 2 utrogestan and reduced the Vagifem. Recipe for disaster
Ha at this stage I don't care what has to go up there to keep me comfortable! I really want to use a progestin patch, but the only form you can get in Ireland is a tablet. No cream, gel or patch
There's no chance of me having any spontaneous period - my ovaries have shrivelled up and disappeared. The little bastards!
This is the same pain I had before I started on the Vagifem. When I was in good shape before reducing, I was using Vagifem twice a day, and every other day using Ovestin instead of a Vagifem dose. Also using Ovestin externally. This may sound like overkill, but POF is a different ballgame and it's clear that for now, it's what my body needs. No oestrogen for 15 years = unhappy bits, and my bladder was what set off all this pain.
RE: testosterone eye drops, I got dry eyes within days of upping the Estradot to 75. Now reduced back to 50 for a while. I have lenses implanted in my eyes i.e. Stitched in there and not removable. Any form of dry eye condition is a major problem for me. I went to see my lens implant surgeon last week because of the dry eye and bloodshot appearance, he asked me if I was on any meds and I said no, not thinking of HRT. So I googled HRT and dry eyes, and this is what came up:
https://www.womentowomen.com/menopause-perimenopause/dry-eyes-and-hormone-imbalance/"Before menopause it is known that the greater your testosterone, the fewer tears you produce and the greater your estrogen, the greater your tears. During menopause, this reverses, the greater your testosterone, the greater your tears and the greater your estrogen, the fewer your tears. We have much more to learn about how hormones play a role in the lubrication of your eyes, but we are understanding that dry eyes can result from a deficiency in estrogen, progesterone, or testosterone."
Some interesting research done on testosterone application for dry eye, particularly by a Dr. David Sullivan. He notes that we have androgen receptors in the lacrimal glands in the eye, which become the dominant hormone receptor in the eye at and after menopause. Prior to menopause, estrogen receptors take the lead. Ladies on estrogen-only HRT had a higher prevalence of dry-eye than ladies on a combo. (Oooo I want a combo meal from Pizza Hut now. Bloody hormones!!!)
http://jeffreydachmd.com/2014/07/testosterone-dry-eye-syndrome/http://www.schepens.harvard.edu/research-storydevid/david-sullivan-phd/research-story.htmlI just find this really interesting. I'm going to get my hands on some unlicensed testosterone gel and whack it on the eyelids (quite a few ladies do this!) I'll see how it goes and hopefully won't grow a willy on my eyelids, but I'll let you know 😂