Hi. Many of you are familiar with my journey so I'll try to recap briefly. I'm 39, started dealing with erratic bleeding a couple years ago, hit a terrible low last year in the fall, started hrt end of the year, increased dosage in March to .50 patch, along with 10 days 200mg progesterone monthly. I have been feeling very well since the increase, gradually getting back to life, exercising daily, anxiety fading away, hot flashes almost completely gone, weepiness and emotional instability vanished. So that's all good. I have hope!
So here's the problem. My hot flashes when they come, always coincide with a mood dip in the form of anxiety, depression, or hyper-sensitive emotions. In the last couple months, they have been exactly on the 4th day of progesterone and the 4th day after finishing the progesterone. Compared with how things were for me, this has been wonderful. This month things seem to be different. I had two days of hot flashes and low mood the week before starting progesterone, and the progesterone never gave me the rested sense of well-being that it usually gives me. Something just feels off. I have been extremely irritable (understatement) this entire course of progesterone and the last few days I'm struggling to not sink into a depression. Tonight will be the final dose of it and my bleed has already begun, so it must only be my period. I have so much fear from this little bit of blue feeling. After all those months of feeling so badly, and then beginning to feel good again, I do not ever want to feel that bad again. I think it traumatized me a bit.
So, any suggestions? Can I expect any better? Do you that feel well have cyclical or random dips? And if so, does it scare you when the doom and gloom pops up?