I have an appointment with the GP tomorrow to discuss HRT - when I saw her a month ago (after having a panic attack because of the fact she is not my usual GP who was unavailable that day and I was desperate) she told me to research HRT and have a think about it and to come back and see her in a month; well I have to say I am still very confused; I was advised by my GP last year that I should not have HRT as my mother had had breast cancer twice. I was referred to a consultant who, without any kind of examination or mammogram told me I was in a "higher" risk of breast cancer because of my mother's history but not high risk - I have no idea if anyone else in my family or my mother's family had breast cancer other than I know for a fact my maternal grandmother didn't, and my mum was an only child; my mum passed away last year so I can't ask her; the thing is I am back on mirtazapine as this helps me sleep, which means my anxiety and panic attacks have subsided together with the hot flushes; however, I have put on masses of weight, I am suffering terrible headaches, I am constantly tired/no energy, my memory is unbelievably bad and seems to be getting worse by the day, I can't concentrate on anything, my joints and back ache, I have absolutely no interest whatsoever in the physical side of my relationship with my incredibly lovely husband, I am irritable, short of breath .....SO - I am still considering HRT for these symptoms but I am finding all of the information totally confusing ....I know it is a personal decision and no-one here can tell me whether I should or should not have HRT - I think I just needed to get all of this "out there" as my husband works away and I can't really discuss this with the kids!!