Really bad again first thing. Got myself up and sorted for work and was determined to do without a diazepam but crumbled before I got out of the house because I felt so anxious and ill. Managed to drive to daughters 5 mins away as she then drives us to work and was in the middle of a panic attack of some sort but thought I'd be okay when I got to work. Takes me ages to 'calm down' once I get here and feel able to cope with the rest of the day. This is awful. I have read all sorts of scare stories during my lunch break about the bloomin withdrawals and was upset last night as the Pharmacist said I would need to withdraw slowly over 4 weeks! I've only been on the damned things 6!!! I am supposed to be going away to Spain for a nice 6 day break in the middle of March and now panicking that I won't be well enough to go as the flight is early morning - right when I am at my worst
I am not a good flyer at all so unless there is some miracle between now and then, it looks like I won't be going and I'm cross. I can't bear the thought of feeling like this for another 4 weeks....apparently, as you lower the dose as well, the worse the anxiety withdrawal is.
Strangely, I have woken up around 2:00am restless but feeling fine then drop off only to wake up again as usual around 5:00am feeling absolutely awful - why is it always that time and doesn't affect me earlier??? I am seriously fed up.