Mandz sweetheart I just saw this thread here and wanted to chime in with all the other supportive messages. Plus being on so many meds I'm not surprised you don't know which way is up!
I had a menopausal breakdown in March last year. I was put on the wrong HRT, then sertraline (2 days and I came off it because the side effects I had were severe and horrendous) and then I got a different Dr, a different HRT and slowly started to get better. But I also took a much lower dose of propranolol for a while and it made me feel shit until I came off it!
I've come to the conclusion that meds are such a crap shoot and if you've been put on so many in such a short space of time no wonder you don't feel that great. I know AD's make you feel awful to begin with anyway - so there's like a settling in period while your body adjusts. Ditto different types of HRT.
Keep persisting with your Dr's until you find something that works for you. And be kind to yourself. You're ill! Don't add moral judgement to how you're feeling. I did and it doesn't help any. You wouldn't treat others who are sick with physical illnesses (like say heart disease, cancer etc) like this so just because it's anxiety and mental stuff doesn't mean that you've somehow brought it on yourself. You haven't.
I got better because a friend intervened and got me to a good Dr. Then I got the right HRT. Then it took time, kindness and I explored other things like psychotherapy, exercise, relaxation and meditation, yoga, change of diet ... and they all helped. But most all kindness helped. So I hope you can find some kind folks around you.
I got better relatively quickly (although it didn't feel like it at the time) and by November I was able to pick up my life a bit. But everyone is individual and you sound like you're dealing with a lot.
Hugs to you xxx