Morning BooBoo and any other ladies on here.
Thank you so much for your responses, you really do help, especially when I get myself into stupid mode and start catastrophising. I just couldn't bear the thought that something else was starting on top of everything else and it really upset me as it then detracts from me trying to concentrate on getting sorted and coping with the new meds. Sat with a hot water bottle most of the evening which helped. Was still bad in bed but okay if stayed on right side so when it was still there this morning had a good talk to myself and took a diazepam and it's eased off. I even said to my OH "guess what, I've got a new illness - pancreatic cancer etc." just so I could hear myself say it out loud and obviously he told me off and called me stupid but it helped to voice it.
I am already seeing a private therapist again but as Coldethyl says on another thread about her therapy, the problem is that you can't believe that this will work and so automatically there is a stumbling block I need to get over. I certainly hope something works because I can't see a happy future for me if it doesn't but I've been like this for so long I can't remember not having it now as if it's just become me.
Thank you for all your responses - I really, really do appreciate them all. x