I debated about posting because this is going to be one big whinge, but I just need to get it out. I am totally fed up of managing things, tired, despondant and confused. This will be my 3rd year of strange things going on with my health, small but niggly, changing and developing - I can't see an end to it and it's getting me down.
I have been in fairly severe discomfort for nearly 24 hours with what I think is ovulation pain, in the last year I have noticed a dull ache mid cycle which I used to get many years ago, but stopped. I also used to have IBS type symptoms (never diagnosed and maybe stress related) which perhaps were linked to this mid cycle pain. Basically I have had the pinching, aching in the ovary and terrible bloating and the feeling a bowel movement would help (which it has). I have recently been made aware of multiple fibroids and am waiting for a consultant appointment to discuss that. The pain is going now and I'm pretty sure my whole system down there is messed up and several things culminating at once, but still it's hard to deal with, even though it passes, I wonder what can be done or whether this is just how things will be for a while...........that's what is bothering me. I just don't know whats going on.
One minute I am ok, all through Christmas I went with the flow, even though I missed a period for the first time since last January, well I had very light pale brown spotting, same as the 'missed 'period I had last year and even stopped worrying about the fibroids but as soon as symptom appears I get anxious and also want to understand what I can do (if anything). I'm now wondering if I have a cyst, ovaries were obscured on the ultrsound by the fibroids. I seem to get this midcycle pain when I have not ovulated the previous month or perhaps the month before. I have been doing a rough basal temp chart to see if temperatures peak at all and I would say for the last year, they have about 75% of the time and when they don't I usually get a bleed that is more troublesome in some way or in the case of last month, hardly anything. Maybe ovarian cysts are also an issue for me, can they make periods irregular? It's all such a horrible unknown place to be and it's been 2 years now. aaaarrrrgh
I hope to god that there is nothing very serious going on with me, I feel very low today and a real feeling of helplessness. Wondering how anyone gets gynae problems sorted or if they do at all, that scares me, I feel tired of all these mostly mild but uncomfortable things. I have had cysts in the past and they resolved, I have had a fibroid in the past but no problems, I have had bowel issues through stress in the past but they passed. It just seems all those things are now going on again and at full throttle.
I just wanted to offload really, I am sure once this pain fully subsides I will feel better, it's been awful ,I have felt horrible all day and at my wits end. I will wait for the appointment with the gynae and with any luck I will learn a few things, because right now I am feeling a little confused about what is going on and whether I should be doing anything about it all. My GP's don't seem to put all the info together and I guess in the back of my mind I am worried there is something really wrong or that without any treatment of some kind things will get worse. Maybe I need progesterone. This was mentioned as a possibility. Either way I would really like to know what I am managing and how - seems to be more than just hormones for me, although an imbalance is probably at the root.
If you read this far, thank you
I might add that I am beginning to feel depressed too, less interest in things, food, just generally flat. That comes and goes as well and is usually associated with a weird period, pain or discomfort but I worry how I will cope if things get even more challenging. Still no hot flushes, though I was hot in the night the past few nights and felt fairly weak.
