I am so confuse and depressed.
I am 48 and have been in peri menopause for several years. I currently have about 2 periods a year. When I do, they are horrid. Not the bleeding, the depression. My entire life I have had severe depression with ovulation. The closer it got to the actual period, the better I felt. So I know it has been the progesterone increase with the ovulation that has made me miserable. When I do not have periods for 6 mos I have hot flashes but MENTALLY I feel GREAT!
So, when I don't have periods, my progesterone level is low but is my estrogen level also low? Or am I feeling so good because my estrogen level is high?
I have had abnormal bleeding for 3 weeks and the doctor put me on progesterone for 10 days. I am on day 5 and am having suicidal thoughts. I am waiting for her to call me back now.
My main concern here is when I no longer have periods, am I going to feel like I do now in peri menopause or am I going to want to kill myself? I'm not joking. Please someone explain this to me. I feel like my doctor is back and forth. I told her that I feel better emotionally in peri menopause than I ever have in my life and said why doesnt she just give me a hysterectomy so I can be done. Her response was, if you felt bad with normal hormonal flexuations your whole life, if I remove ALL of the hormones you will be 100times worse! Is that true? I think it's proven that I can not take the progesterone. My two previous blood test were very high 50ish Lutinizing hormone so she said I haven't ovulated in a long time. Doesn't that mean I have t had progesterone for awhile? What the heck is going on?
PLEASE HELP!