Hello Shaon1978
I am sorry that you are in this position, it is hard. I am older than you at 44 and circumstances meant I didn't have children, it wasn't a choice. I have just been told I am going through early menopause and the finality of my circumstances.
My best advise is to take your time. There is so much going on for you, emotionally and physically. Great that you have the opportunity to talk to a counsellor, with regard to the GP, please don't feel you are wasting their time, this process is important for you. Go along and see what guidance and information they have for you.
Grief can be a muddley time and hard work, it takes time to work out how you feel, then you might change your mind about that and feel different but it will be OK in the end. Take care of yourself and accept all the support you can.