12 months ago I suddenly started experiencing intense anxiety, coupled with very low mood. Physically I noticed my periods were much lighter, and I was no longer getting the bloating and breast tenderness before my period was due.
Unfortunately, very unfortunately, I saw 2 GPs who just decided I was suffering from regular depression and anxiety. They put me firstly on Sertraline which I reacted VERY badly to. Then swapped me to amitriptyline, which eventually stopped much of the anxiety and low mood, but made me gain 14lbs in weight. I also felt spaced out much of the time.
But despite taking ADs I still noticed there seemed to be cyclical pattern to my anxiety and mood, which didn't make any sense? After keeping a mood diary I realised my mood was still being affected by my menstrual cycle. Plus, I remembered that the only time in my life before, when I had suffered with anxiety, was when I had PND.
I had a light bulb moment and realised I wasn't feeling anxious and depressed and totally unable to cope because my life was stressful and busy. My life suddenly felt terrifying and depressing BECAUSE my stupid hormones were mucking me about, just like they had when I had PND.
I researched, and read Professor John Studd's website and I cried, because suddenly it all made perfect sense to me. I wasn't losing my mind, and I wasn't weak and pathetically unable to cope with life.
I immediately stopped taking my ADs and actually didn't even really notice (except I lost the 14lbs straight away). Yes, I still had my 'bad days' where I felt very low and anxious about the most mundane of things. But I'd had them when taking ADs anyway.
I am now waiting for a prescription for HRT. To me it doesn't make sense to take ADs when actually your body just needs more oestrogen. The ADs are just masking the issue and not giving your body what it needs.