That's exactly it! CLKD.
The intensity to feel happy and making everyone else happy at Xmas.

It's the expectation of it all.
It's always been on my head, years ago my brothers and their families would come over to our house, and after I'd cooked our Xmas dinner, (4 of us), I'd be cooking for when they got here later on. Or getting nibbles out and a like, yeah we had a laff, but no one invited us over to theirs, it was always them coming to us! At the time I didn't mind, but in hindsight,
I wish one of them would have had the stress of it all.

Never mind, it's all done and dusted now, we've all gone our separate ways, and now only speak to one brother, who never did come over at that time anyway.....

But the intensity of it all stays with me........it's a bloody annoying thing!
