Ugh .. I think after years and years of being a caretaker for my mom right up until her death, I have developed a phobia of medical tests, or rather, waiting on results. In the fall, after weeks and weeks of spotting I went to the dr and had an endometrial biopsy and ultrasound done.
I felt tortured for the next week, literally scared out of my mind, a few days I took 1/2 a xanax so I could calm down. It's awful.
My tests turned out good, just showed fibroids. thank the lord.
Now ..my Dr wants me to go for a mammogram. I am 54, have never had one, I got an automated message yesterday reminding me to go, and it upset me the rest of the day.
I've been reading lately about the stress of waiting for test results and the lasting psycological affects. I think that years and years of waiting for my mom's test results has made me like this.
So, my issue is not going for the test, it's the following days waiting for the phone to ring, or getting the letter in the mail. Here in the US 61% get called back.
I just can't get up the nerve to put myself through it. :-(
How do you deal with the anxiety of waiting for test results?