thanks everyone and Taz, I know you're right. He's all I have though - no kids, no close family and my best friends are dotted around the world, we've been together 34 years and have been through a lot, so we have an incredibly deep bond.
I can see how pale he looks right now, and his tum isn't right (no results yet) and he's ratty as hell so I just worry. I'm going to keep up ringing him at 6.30pm - 7pm to chase 'when are you coming home' but I think the rest he just tunes out, yes.
As for the rest, I'm working on keeping him happy
For our anniversary he bought me another dress online (some of you might remember the Sack Saga from before!
) - it's lovely this time but doesn't fit at the neck as I have really small shoulders and a not-so-small waist. So disappointed. So he won't stop trying to smarten me up and I won't stop trying to make him work less and make time for more fun stuff. He's given up pottery (no time). I'm going to fuss if he gives up his 6pm cricket in the summer. He's one of the older players but still enjoys it and none of them are exactly world class either.
thanks xxx