Just an update. Haven't posted as have had 2 weeks of a absolute hell and don't want to pass my negativity and depression onto others. Am on estradot 75 and have had non-stop symptoms, headaches, dizzy, brain zaps, chronic palps, internal shaking and no sleep for 10 days. For some reason, symptoms have abated over last 2 days and I feel much better, but am frankly terrified of them all coming back at any moment - currently still counting good times in terms of hours rather than days. Off to Florida on Sunday - first holiday in 5 years and so scared that I'm gonna be ill the whole time. My only backup is ativan which I haven't taken in the last 2 weeks as am determined not to rely on these - sometimes I think I'm too stubborn. Am authorized to increase to 100 estradot but just feel that any further changes won't do me any good (you may remember I've changed from gel to patch) anyway today, so far, has been good. Hope you're all doing well as reading your stories gives me some hope that this will all get better soon...