Dear Janjee
I dont know how old you are or when and if your periods ceased but am sending you at least my sympathy and understanding. I am nine years without periods and experiencing menopausal symptoms, all very trying. The weepiness, fearfulness and anxiety that you talk about are symtoms of menopause. Many of us are in this boat here, just everything getting on top of you and starting with the tears, whereas previously you could cope a lot better. It may be that as time has progressed, your own oestrogen level has dropped. If you have an understanding doctor it would be worth going back for a chat, perhaps you would be willing to increase your dose level of HRT. Contrary to what some may say, I think taking HRT can in many cases increase weight as oestrogen is intimately connected to the building of fat. In my own case without much oestrogen my weight has gone down, in fact I would like a bit more plumpness, especially under the skin.
I hope that someone else can come along to help. I am still struggling with all of the symptoms at 59 now and also in a quandry as to what to do but just wanted to chip in with a reply and to let you know that we all understand what you are going through if that is any help.
Meg