Hi BP, so glad you are home, there is nothing like your own bed. I totally understand about coming to terms with events, the last few months have been so surreal for me, I often wonder if it was all a bad dream. Try to take one day at a time, I tell myself every day is another day I am getting better.
I am almost 9 weeks post op and still have that horrible pulling/tugging feeling in my stomach muscles, I look forward to the day when it eventually stops. I hope you are very soon on the mend and can start to put this all behind you, easier said than done I know. Thinking of you.