About three years ago, I suddenly became very unwell, a dreadful pain in my neck, insomnia, joint pains, feelings of panic, fear and just not being able to cope. I wondered what on earth had happened to me, genuinely contemplated suicide and desperately wanted my life back. I didn't recognise myself. Looking back now, I realise it was the start of menopause although I was still having regular periods. I ended up sobbing in the doctors surgery one day and was prescribed amitriptyline for my sore neck and insomnia, nobody mentioned menopause although I was 54.
My partner lives 130 miles away and I remember vividly calling him at midnight one night to say he had to come now as I was 'frightened'. He must have wondered what on earth had happened to the strong, feisty woman I used to be. Anyway, bless him, he drove down the A1 in the middle of the night and arrived with me at about 2.30 am. He came in and asked what was wrong and all I could say was 'I don't know but I'm really frightened'.