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[paisley]

Hi CLKD,
          he goes to school here in Spain 3 days a week, and does Spanish every afternoon.
How is everyone doing today?
I feel so weepy today, I thought after 5 weeks I would be over withdrawal effects of ADs or perhaps it is just the meno. I thought hrt was meant to help this. I hate feeling like this. Went to pharmacy and got my beta blockers this morn but still haven't taken them, I am so stubborn, I think some how I am giving in by taking them, I know it sounds daft trying to persevere but just making myself more miserable. Got some valerina and haven't taken that yet either. Can't be bothered doing anything.

[purplenanny]

Paisley, you are not alone, I also struggle with these awful feelings sometimes. You will have better days soon, hang on in there and don't keep punishing yourself ( I do that to!)

Sending you a big hug

Purplenanny x x

[paisley]

The beta blockers only cost me 2 euros for 90, much cheaper than a prescription. Now to take them, I don't know

[paisley]

Thanks Purplenanny,
hope you feel better soon. It is the helplessness and hopelessness of it all. Hate just wanting to cry all the time.
Just picked little boy up from school and all the other mother's were laughing and chatting, i just wanted to cry go and get him and go home. It feels so unfair, I know I am just feeling sorry for myself but can't help it

[paisley]

Hi Mrs P,
I don't know cos when I feel ok, I love it here. I think when I was in U.K I used to just get in my car and go somewhere but here it seems more difficult and the language barrier. I suppose I feel a bit more trapped. I had bad meno symptoms in U.K. I just need a big big boost from somewhere or something.  Just feeling totally fed up with meno and everything it brings and today do feel particulary weepy.

[Anne B]

Paisley
It must be especially hard for you with no support nearby. I had a relatively good day yesterday but feel the same as you do today. This HRT isn't working fast enough for my liking and am fedup with the horrible feelings I have. Just have to hope we get more better days than bad.
Take the bull by the horns and swallow the medication.
Hope you feel better soon

Anne B

[paisley]

Thanks everyone.
Yes Mrs P, I really need to learn Spanish
AnneB, I am so pleased that you had an ok day yesterday, hold on to that. The thing is I feel a lot more positive about others, I just know for eg that you will get there but when it comes to me I just don't think as positive. I just don't believe that for me I will feel normal again from the meno symptoms and that just makes me feel worse. When I feel ok I do believe it but when I feel bad I don't. I just feel hrt works for others and not me.

[Anne B]

Paisley
That's exactly how I feel. I am so glad for the ladies who are responding well to HRT but am so jealous as well because I'm not part of that club yet and wonder if that day will ever come.
Had to go to Occupational Health today since I have been off work for so long. The OH nurse is lovely and very understanding but by the end of the 1 1/2 hour meeting I was really anxious and quite spaced out. Cried all the way home - no real reason except hormones.
Most days can't be bothered to speak to anyone and I must seem really rude when friends or family contact me. I love them all and I know they mean well but quite frankly can't concentrate enough to interact properly.
I take my hat of to you living in an unfamiliar country and having to cope with a young family as well. You are probably coping better than you think. Just be very kind to yourself and hope that soon you will see positive results.

Anne B

[Horsie]

I'm a bit like you today Paisley and Anne B. I felt better by mid afternoon and am not too bad now but I could have written either of your posts to be honest.  Anne B, I know the feeling about not wanting to talk and can't be bothered about anything - that is me at the moment but as it couldn't be less like me normally    Paisley, I have those same feelings regarding whether I'll ever feel normal again and I agree that it does make things worse but how do you stop it? i just dont know  I have been taking a high dose of St Johns Wort but have decided to cut it right back and maybe stop altogether because I think that it is making me more restless, jittery and anxious than I should be - I may be wrong but feel that it's worth finding out. 
At least coming on here makes you realise that you're not alone or going mad even though it does feel like that sometimes  I send you my very Best Wishes and a Big Hug and lots of positive vibes for better times very soon. X

[Anne B]

Tomorrow is another day ladies.Will be better after 8 hours uninterrupted sleep. If only!!
Anne B

[JJ]

Hello to all ,Hope you've had reasonable day. I'm feeling bit better than yesterday thank goodness, still a bit jittery but not as bad.

Paisley, I think taking meds, hrt, beta blockers, anti depressants is a sign of strength not weakness. It's a forward step to try and take some control regarding the meno symptoms it's certainly not a failure. Menopause can be extremely difficult and as it can take a while to get through it why should you suffer, the meds may make it more bearable. X ps not too long till your daughters visit, you could start taking the beta blockers and see if they help you, ladies on here have had good success with them and I'm sure they'd be happy to advise.

[Horsie]

Gosh Nelliedee, what a lot you have been through. Welcome to the forum where I know you will get a lot of advice, understanding and support because we all have one thing in common in that this time of our lives is making life difficult.  I have the emotional symptoms at the moment but am not taking anything as in ADs or HRT and I find that coming on here and posting really helps me to cope when I feel bad. Best wishes x

[Babylon Burning]

Nelliedee you poor thing, have a hug.  My anxiety is driving me loopy at the moment but AD's scare me so I'm trying to soldier on.  Glad to hear the propanolol is helping, I think other people on the forum find it useful.

[nelliedee]

Thanks for your kind messages. I am just so pleased to have found this forum and to be able to share problems and hopefully some answers and helpful remedies.
xx

[Bette]

Hi nelliedee
 
You might like to introduce yourself on "New Members" as lots of others will want to welcome you. 
I was "lucky" in that anxiety only hit with peri but that may be because I've never had children so this is the first hormone upheaval I've been through.  I'm also lucky in that HRT has really helped me. I've found Lemon Balm very good but best of all has been this exercise:-
http://www.menopausematters.co.uk/forum/index.php/topic,8454.0.html
You'll find lots of info and support here - invaluable simply because it's from ladies going through exactly the same things and so able to really understand. 
Bette x