You managed some of the walk . Guilt is the hardest thing too, the feeling that we are letting others down.
In 1999 I was very ill one C.mas and had to go back to the Hotel that night, therefore not opening gifts with his family as was the habit, oh I mean tradition

. When I walked into *my* Mum's house the next morning she asked what sort of evening we had had and when I told her I had to leave, her words were:
"So you spoiled it for everyone else". No, if they couldn't have a nice evening without my being there that was their problem

. It wasn't as though it was a deliberate act on my part ..........
Little steps
