Broke through a brick wall mentally today.
Went for a jog on Monday that ended up being horrific. It was sooo hot and I have never ran in the heat before (i live in Scotland remember!). Anyway on Monday my legs felt like lead - I could barely breathe and my face felt like it was going to burst with the heat. I hardly managed anything. Went home and felt really ill for the rest of the day. I was so disappointed - wanted to give up. Anyway today I was scheduled to be going back out again with my trainer - I woke up at 7.30 am and the first thing I did was burst into tears - i just felt that everything was too hard - couldn't face my jog - couldn't face stresscos (no food in the cupboard) - couldn't make a decision but knew I wanted to cancel the day and stay in bed.
I didn't! I dragged myself up - dried my tears - delegated stresscos to my kids and went out running. For the first few minutes I was crying - just felt too overwhelmed with it all. Anyway I ran for 8 minutes non stop!!! That is a huge success for me - so am well chuffed. I kept going but we broke it down into run/walk - the block of runs were much longer than previously. So here we are a few hours later - kids at the shops - my run was not a failure - getting ready to go out for lunch with a friend and have just sent an email to a woman for hypno to help me get on that plane in three weeks - so all in all an improvement since 7.30 this morning.
8 minutes!!! Am well chuffed.
Still got a long way to go but thats ok. Xxx