This will be my 4th year taking my daily Utrogestan dose as well as applying the 2x weekly-patch and l seem to be finding it harder the more l am "in it"
My body aches most hours of the day on a daily basis so much so that l had to change jobs due to long shifts which l found totally uncapable to fulfill (and that was with a menopause policy in situ!)
As l live alone l have no one to discuss anything, the loneliness is real and the struggle is from 5 a.m when l wake up with sore shoulders, sore hips, sore neck area, anxiety, low moods etc etc....my body never welcomed the Evorel75 patches as it was making my joints ache, got swollen eye-lids and face too but it did stop the "staining" and bleeds. As l was truly scared of this reactions/side effects l decided to contact gp who refered me to Gyneo-consultant for a biopsy which thankfuly came back as "normal", that was a relief as after all l went through one hell of a frightening and painful hospital experience ALL on my own, sat in car straight after examination and cried my eyes out! to say the least
The struggle on a daily basis is real, so is the general pain, anxiety, loneliness, my job does not help as l am away for weeks at a time which makes hard to keep friends or do any local activities. Tried changing career and that was a -totally impossible- goal to achieve which left me feeling worthless, with a very low morale and tearful as now l could see my future was bleak, very bleak.
l've tried so many times to pick myself up that is part of my daily routine nowadays, l try hard to "blank" my issues as much as l possibly can but evening times comes and l feel the need to cry as l am again all alone(just like the day before, the month before and the year before that) l seem to find myself extremely stuck in a rute that l lack the energy to fight any longer. Yes, the struggles are real at my age and having to face this issue. YES l do see positives but these are a bare minimum. Menopause sucks, my body is not responding well and seems to have its own agenda and my mind is a mess...
Any of you ladies experiencing any similar issues? l thinks l've covered all areas of my daily "misery" here
Any advice always appreciated and thank you
My best wishes to you all