I think I?ll be lifer too.
I tried weaning myself off the other month.
Only lasted about 9/10 days, the horrible depression and rage, and crying got to me.
Thought I was having a breakdown! ( again!)
Couldn't and wouldn't go any further with it, so went back to my normal dose.
Within days, I was back to myself.
I just wanted to see what would happen if I reduced it, if I could manage on a lower dose, but the effects of it was just too much, especially at this time in my life, with MIL to look after. 🤷♀️