When is your next appointment, KAH? Hope it is soon now.
Googling is not very helpful most of the time because we focus on the not so nice stories.
I've had to stop reading the Daily Mail Online for all the crappy gossip because there is always an awful illness story and it sets me off.
On a positive note, read a story recently about someone famous whose wife had a serious breast issue diagnosed. They decided not to do any googling and to put their faith in the doctors and just do what they were told. They just focussed on all the things in their control like sleeping and diet, etc. But they didn't look up the what ifs etc. I'm not sure that works for everyone but it did for them and she got through her treatment very successfully to an all clear status.
My husband often tells me to stop worrying about the things we can't control and just focus on the things we can.
So (I know it's easier said than done), your job is to keep calm and sleep and eat and rest and to try your very best not to worry.
Distraction, jobs, cleaning helps. Crappy television. Sort out your drawers.
Keep us posted and remember we are all wishing you well xxx