I have a history of depression of sorts most of my life and have spent about 30 years on antidepressants until i found information in the press about problems caused by the pills i was taking at the time. Several articles and papers corroborated this so i got to thinking why have i been on pills for 30 years🤔🤔 do i actually need them? So i stopped and felt fine for a while then i became premenopausal as a trade off. Thought you knew depression before? This was and is a whole different ball game! Ocd i could rationalise became overwhelmimg constant obsessive soundtrack- death, cancer, brain tumour, my favourite being bowel cancer , not helped by developing the IBS id never had in my life till now . As others have said 1001 symptoms that never get mentioned, discussed, usually dismissed and passed over for the hot flushes and stop-the-world vaginal dryness (yes , thats at the top of this list of quality of life when you struggle at work with fatigue, no muscle strength , mood swings, bloated stomach !) Anyway i digress to a potential rant about the stupid way Meno is approached. My point here is i had asked doc about retrying antidepressants as i was very conscious my mood swings were making my extreme personality faults worse , grumpy, irritable, ranty and couldnt control it. Not good working with just 2 other folk - both your bosses (male) . Prozac had a side effect , think it was tiredness, the other was Citalopram (i think) , tiredness again- legit reasons but cant quite remember. Anyway now its Sertraline. I tried the prescribed dose....after the required pick up time i just felt "weird " in no way like me, as if on 5 cans Red Bull at a time but on LSD also .... plus not decent sleep, waking every half hour wide awake. So i cut it down and took the pills in the daytime which for the most part has been passable. My mood swings are less. I am still me but 30% quieter , i think. I wanted to be amenable and chilled at work , not pissed off, grumpy , moany and continually bored. It worked.
The problem is , in some way or another ive had a bit of emotional detachment from one degree or another mkst of my life. Im used to its shades and generally cover it up. Meno brought a new level. Apathy and flatness. Thankfully a discussion with a running mate yielded she felt periods of being pretty unenthusiastic about her grandson (practised at not showing it) and since discovered in the small print in places, flatness is a symptom. This past fortnight its a whole new level. Another woman on here referred to feeling like a robot. Good description. I feel like im unsure if im dreaming or not, unreal, scared by this overwhelming unlikeness. Empty. Unfazed to the point of detachment. Like a mask of myself. A robot. In addition i had Testosterone and was just starting to get my level of energy back when the dr informs me the blood level is too high , cut it back. I now feel lack of motivation again , switched off to my husband ( a facade becuse i feel sorry for him getting no response) and my brain the past 2 weeks has gone back to forgetting lots - burnt spaghetti, misunderstood sentances, trying to put a 2nd watch on(!) Etc and fog ....
This isnt asking for help ... i have 2 take half dose testosterone so hopefully itl come back up a level but wondering if others experienced this weirdness with Sertraline on whatever dose.....
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Topic: Depression and on 3rd antidepressant Sertraline (Read 3187 times)