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Title: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on July 28, 2024, 06:17:26 PM
I have been in a complete mess since the beginning of May, worsening since the start of July. The biggest mental health crisis I've ever had, brought on by chronic, severe, prolonged insomnia. It seemed to coincide with a big rise in my Estrogen levels (still ovulating every month, was on a small dose of 1/4 of a 25 Evorel patch). I came off that patch on Tuesday last week and although my Estrogen levels don't seem to have changed much, I'm in a whole world of hell. I had previously been under the care of a psychiatrist from when this happened before, but he's been pretty useless with suggesting strategies and GPs even worse. I wondered if anyone had any tips of medication strategies that have worked for them that I could raise with my psychiatrist next time I speak with him?

I currently take:
Mirtazapine 15mg
Trazodone 150mg
Amitryptiline 10mg
Diazepam 4mg at night but has been between 6-8mg for the last 4 weeks
Atenolol beta blocker - half a 25mg tablet a day

Its very strange in that some days I seem to be OK enough, and then others I have uncontrollable sobbing and tremors/shaking and hypnic jerks preventing me from sleep. The anxiety has now taken on a life of its own, I've never had it this bad before.

I do find Atenolol helpful but beta blockers lower Melatonin and benzos also reduce slow wave sleep, so not ideal. I realise no one can give medical advice, but just wondered if there are any ladies out there who have suffered with extreme anxiety that have found any decent medical solutions that I could raise with my doctor for their opinion? Xx
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: CLKD on July 28, 2024, 06:25:54 PM
Yep.  I think that you are taking far too much similar medication so your body doesn't know whether it's flying a bike or riding a kite!

Diazepam = valium = is used as a pre-med as well as an anti-anxiety medication.  4mg is hardly any dose at all.  Eventually was taking it as necessary, 5mg the night B4 an event that I was unable to get out of.   Because it worked I never required the 5mg during the next day and effects lasted 3 days 4 me.

Who suggested halving a 25mg tablet?  I was taking propranolol: initially 80mg 3 times a day dropped after 4 weeks to 40mg 2 times then I dropped down to 20mg at night.  Prescribed to ease early morning surges which worked for me.  Eventually I was waking with low background headaches and as we went into lockdown I stopped completely.  Didn't know whether it was the BB or Covid-19  ::).

When do U take the Mirtazapine and why was it prescribed?  My friend had good results with it but I don't know which dose nor how often.

A psychiatrist worth his salt would never be at a loss!  They do after all: I may have said B4: colleagues and drug companies with who to discuss treatment regimes.  When did U last discuss your regime with him?

When my anxiety floored me I thought that I would never C the light of day, eventually with medication I came out of the dark. 

Where did U read that BB lower Meltaonin?  I've never had trouble sleeping since I left my very busy responsible job - on nights when I don't drop off that;s it I have to read.  Sometimes I wake in the early hours and realise that if I'm not tired, then my body is well rested.

I used to wake up to see whether I'd been asleep  ::) so sleep problems can impact hugely.

Why did U stop your patch? 

Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Nas on July 28, 2024, 06:26:30 PM
Gosh Gilla, that sounds brutal, you poor thing.

What do you take the amitriptyline for? 10mg is a low dose. I take 37.5 for sleep each night, else I wouldn’t sleep at all.

Does the mirtazapine not help the insomnia? Have you tried CBD oil or gummies? Healing cauldron do a low dose hybrid oil which I find relaxing.

No other solutions unfortunately. I refuse to give in to my anxiety and just ( somehow) power through with my job / garden / house etc . I find if I am very busy, my anxiety is better. The less I do, the worse it is.

You are taking a good whack of meds already.. is it all necessary and beneficial do you think?

Good luck and hopefully some of the ladies will pop over with some suggestions x
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: CLKD on July 28, 2024, 06:26:53 PM
U could also make an appt with a Pharmacist to discuss your current regime, a new eye on what you are taking may well help from a professional point of view.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Mariab on July 28, 2024, 07:06:54 PM
Gilla, it sounds like you are having a pretty rough time.... :-\
Can I ask how long you have been taking these meds??. And did you start hrt before or after?  :)
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: bombsh3ll on July 28, 2024, 07:47:16 PM
Blimey that's some cocktail, I'm not surprised your psychiatrist is now at a loss.

There's ketamine, that's being used by some psychiatrists but I'm not sure about availability on the NHS.

Also if multiple psychiatric meds haven't worked out, it suggests a different approach might be more worthwhile.

If you think there's a hormonal component, and to be clear a quarter of a 25mcg estradiol patch wouldn't affect a mouse, it's just not biologically plausible for that to have affected you negatively, but if it seems hormonal what about shutting down your own system and adding back a stable consistent level of hormones with a combined pill taken continuously?

I take Zoely continuously and it's brilliant for keeping me bleed free and hormonally stable. No ups or downs, it's a hormonal monorail not a rollercoaster.

You could also add a small dose of oral progesterone at night which might help you sleep, if you haven't already tried that alongside the patches?
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: AnonoMiss on July 29, 2024, 12:57:03 AM
I have been in a complete mess since the beginning of May, worsening since the start of July. The biggest mental health crisis I've ever had, brought on by chronic, severe, prolonged insomnia. It seemed to coincide with a big rise in my Estrogen levels (still ovulating every month, was on a small dose of 1/4 of a 25 Evorel patch). I came off that patch on Tuesday last week and although my Estrogen levels don't seem to have changed much, I'm in a whole world of hell. I had previously been under the care of a psychiatrist from when this happened before, but he's been pretty useless with suggesting strategies and GPs even worse. I wondered if anyone had any tips of medication strategies that have worked for them that I could raise with my psychiatrist next time I speak with him?

I currently take:
Mirtazapine 15mg
Trazodone 150mg
Amitryptiline 10mg
Diazepam 4mg at night but has been between 6-8mg for the last 4 weeks
Atenolol beta blocker - half a 25mg tablet a day

Its very strange in that some days I seem to be OK enough, and then others I have uncontrollable sobbing and tremors/shaking and hypnic jerks preventing me from sleep. The anxiety has now taken on a life of its own, I've never had it this bad before.

I do find Atenolol helpful but beta blockers lower Melatonin and benzos also reduce slow wave sleep, so not ideal. I realise no one can give medical advice, but just wondered if there are any ladies out there who have suffered with extreme anxiety that have found any decent medical solutions that I could raise with my doctor for their opinion? Xx

Benzos can become addictive after 2 weeks of continuous use so please be careful

Tsrt cherry extract is a milder alternative to melatonin

Have you tried utrogestin on its own for the anxiety ie without estrogen?

Neurofeedback can help anxiety, depression and many other issues - Neuroptimol is a type you can rent at home and do yourself, lots on Google and YouTube

Lithiam orotate 5mg can help anxiety

Have you had your B vitamins tested and if low have you looked at the MTHFR gene mutation? Again lots on Google

Also do you have any histamine issues as that can also cause extreme anxiety and peri can cause you to go intl estrogen dominance which makes that side worse, it can also contribute to leaky gut which causes yet more histamine and anxiety

Perhaps a functional medicinr practitioner  might be able to look at all this Holistically for you
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on July 29, 2024, 07:56:13 AM
Thanks all for your replies, much appreciated. I don't need to be told it's a rubbish cocktail, I'm well aware... it's come about through repeated bouts of severe hormonal insomnia over the last 5 years and because I can't get off any of them quickly - I have to taper down really slowly - so I get really low and then get another bout and go back to square one. Up until recently I was on very low doses of the Amitriptyline and Mirtazapine, it was only the Trazodone that was at a normal starting dose. But since this bout - which has been worse than I've ever known - I've been desperately trying to fix it and so have put up my Mirtazapine, but it's not seemed to work.

In terms of patches - I know I absorb more transdermally of all things than most and patches have a high variability of absorption between women, so I do think I was getting a notable amount from it... I certainly would feel it if I reduced or took it off (or increased it even slightly). But my Estrogen levels from the weekend's blood test don't really support that there is anything wrong or unusual there since taking it off. My Progesterone level did come back at unusually low, even for the follicular phase at <0.2 nmol.

I'm already way past the stage of becoming addicted to benzos, I've been taking the valium for over a year. Honestly, all that matters right now is that I find a way to get out of this crisis and I will deal with all the tapering and resetting of meds etc later - I've never known anxiety this bad, for this long. It's something very physical going on in my body and nothing to do with anxious thoughts. I've lost over half a stone in weight in just one week, because I literally can't eat or sleep.

@Bombshell, funnily enough I did try Zoely for 3 months right at the beginning of my peri journey. It didn't have enough estrogen in at the time for me to control my night sweats and 3am insomnia, but I seemed to be going through something quite specific then and maybe it could be worth another shot. A hormonal monorail sounds like absolute bliss. The only thing is I'm on day 8 of my cycle now, so it would really need to wait until next month to start it.

@Mariab I have been on HRT for about 5 years and these meds for around the same time, but as I said I had got really low on most of them until this happened.

@CLKD that's reassuring to hear you didn't have insomnia on propranolol. The heart palpitations and ectopic beats are one of my worse symptoms, so maybe I should rely on my Atenolol more. I have requested another appointment with my psychiatrist this week but not sure when it will be. I just feel like I need some kind of strategy to get out of this immediate crisis and that he's not helping me with suggestions for that at all.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on July 29, 2024, 08:39:16 AM
Update: I've decided this morning to put back on my 1/4 patch of Evorel 25. Although I very much felt at the end of my last cycle it was too much Estrogen causing the issue (my day 21 levels were 916 pmol) I have never experienced this level of intense physical anxiety before (even when I do feel like I'm sleeping) and I can't help feeling there is something more in HRT than we see on an Estradiol blood test that your body withdraws from when you stop it. Please wish me luck / keep your fingers crossed for me, as I'm so nervous it could backfire  :-\
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Penguin on July 29, 2024, 09:43:17 AM
Personally I'd find a psychiatrist that is willing to do gene testing, there is a specific panel that identifies whether or not a certain medication will work well for you or not. Genesight is the US version of the test but read recently on here it's not available in the UK. There definitely is a test that is though as my psychiatrist was going to order it if my medication didn't work.
Only other thing I can contribute is to say I'm prescribed 2mg of slow release melatonin for sleep and that works really well. I'm getting better sleep now (duration and quality) than I've had for years. It isn't a forever solution though and I'm going to try and stop them at the end of summer now I'm more settled in my job.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: CLKD on July 29, 2024, 10:37:47 AM
If U feel that you need to withdraw from some/all of these medications, then a Psychiatrist should be qualified enough to support you !  My GP did so ......... for an AD, can't remember which nor why I needed to withdraw.

As for 'valium', people become addicted to the need on an 'in case this dose isn't enough' basis, then the body/brain become used to the drug.  4 me it gave me 3 days relief without any top up. 

I wouldn't suggest trying to withdraw from all at once.  Good advice from Penguin .......... with support these meds can be withdrawn.  Some people have an addictive personality too!  However, most of what you are on: singly: can be Life Savers
.

Lack of sleep can be tiresome!   Also, who measured your oestrogen levels, blood tests are reliably un-reliable!
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: bombsh3ll on July 29, 2024, 11:32:29 AM
If Zoely suited you but didn't have enough estrogen you could always add a low strength patch as well. Some specialists do this as the progestin is potent enough to cover it.

Perfectly reasonable when you look at the estradiol dose in Qlaira (although I wouldn't recommend this, it isn't monophasic and dienogest doesn't shut you down at the pituitary level as effectively).

You don't have to wait until your period to start a birth control pill - it just can't be relied on for contraception for the first week if you start elsewhere in your cycle.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on July 29, 2024, 11:41:23 AM
I agree CLKD - although the cocktail of meds situation is far from good, it makes me more anxious to think about that and I know that I can (slowly) taper off these meds as I've done so before. The most important thing is getting myself out of this immediate crisis.

I have always found the blood tests to be fairly reliable (done at clinics, not finger prick) but I do think that there is more to our hormone levels than what is simply reflected in a blood test, that's for sure.

I seem to have this situation where every so often my hormone levels (not just Estrogen; Progesterone too) spike very, very high and it triggers off one of these episodes. Unfortunately reducing or stopping my HRT seems to have limited benefit and (like this time) can actually cause its own set of withdrawal issues. I think going forward I need to try and think of some way of shutting down ovulation, so that at least (hopefully) the fluctuations will be limited. I can't carry on losing 3+ months of my life every year. Maybe Zoely or a Progesterone only pill. @Bombshell that's a good idea on Zoely. I think adding anything extra into the mix today might not be the way to go and could cause its own set of problems, but definitely something to think about maybe for the start of my next cycle.

I really do appreciate the support on this forum, it's a very scary thing to go through this level of anxiety and insomnia on your own.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: AmandaJR on August 01, 2024, 10:43:02 AM
Gilla999.
Checking on you, how are things?
Sending hugs.x
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: CLKD on August 01, 2024, 11:27:41 AM
Any news this morning? 
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on August 01, 2024, 03:03:59 PM
@Gilla, I'm really sorry you are suffering like this.

I'm going to say something perhaps slightly controversial, which is that you really question whether coming off E is going to help. I mean, a QUARTER of a 25 patch is what you were on, which is.... 6.25mcg???? It's almost impossible that such a micro dose is going to be causing any of this.

As someone else who has suffered (for 3.5 years now) with severe insomnia, hypnic jerks, shaking through the night, heart beating hard and fast, having freezing cold feet when I first get into bed (to the point that I need an electric blanket in a heatwave)....

However, since getting my E up, I am now doing much better than a year ago. Instead of about 2-3 hours of light sleep and being completely dysfunctional and unable to work, I now sleep well until 4am. Then I wake up and often can only sleep lightly till 8am. I still have mild versions of the heart beating hard and fast and the inner tremors but they are much reduced and I can sleep through them. I achieved this by getting my E up to around 330pmol. I need to go higher....

I needed MORE estrogen, not less. I was not absorbing well transdermally. Following advice from my Newson doctor, I need to get between 450-650pmol - and some women need as high as 1000 - to overcome the fluctuations which cause these neurological symptoms and to ensure enough E reaches the brain, where it functions as a neurotransmitter. Regular doctors don't know this.

Whilst on a 37.5 patch my E once was 480pmol - but my own body must have contributed a lot of that. I learnt to only test E during my period, when my own levels would hopefully be low and I would get a better reflection of what I was getting from HRT.

When I was around 280pmol, I was routinely told that everything should be lovely and doctors didn't know why I was feeling this way and it must be something else. Which led to: B12 shots every other day. An iron infusion. A trial of thyroid meds (which I now have to wean off from). And so many supplements trialled.

I really am incredibly sceptical when i hear about women being on about 4+ different psych meds BEFORE getting their estrogen up has been attempted. It's ridiculous. These are serious meds (I am a psychotherapist by the way) with side effects. Estrogen is incredibly safe and whilst it can have side effects, they are not long-term and will stop when dosages are adjusted.

What leads you to think you had a 'big rise in estrogen levels'? Just because your own ovaries produced a surge of estrogen, doesn't mean you should stay on a very low dose of HRT. In fact, the opposite: The greater the surges from your ovaries, the greater the peaks and troughs and the more symptoms you will have. The answer is really to have a very decent level of estrogen from HRT which then blunts the peaks and troughs....

I would urge you to make an appointment with the Newson Health psychiatrist privately. We are not allowed to post links but if you just google "newson health psychiatrist" you will get details up. Hopefully she will be able to take an approach both in terms of optimising hormones and also determining whether you really need to be on all those psych meds...

I'd really urge you to seek specialist help. Yes, it is expensive - but the NHS just can't cope with complex cases like this. The waiting time alone makes it impossible.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: CrispyChick on August 01, 2024, 05:10:54 PM
Joziel

I'm going to politely disagree with you there. Fir done if us jn peri,estrogen is very much the problem not the solution.

My own estrogen fluctuates anywhere from around 350 upwards (day 21). I take no hrt. This level of estrogen, with very little progesterone in my body, leaves me very unbalanced and ill.

I know this to be the case as I've been round the block for the last 7 years with this. When I tried hrt - the estrogen alone escalated my symptoms. When I tried the mini pill, my E was kept at 220 and I felt so much better. Unfortunately the progestin causes me terrible mood issues. So was not a long term option.

I know you believe you need a lot if estrogen and, for you, you might. But we are very much not all the same.

I am looking at chemical menopause to shut down my cycle (and my estrogen).

We are all very different and the biggest problem we share is lack of help and expertise.  :(
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on August 01, 2024, 08:40:56 PM
I totally agree we are all v different Crispy, but given the total lack of research into all this - especially into these weird neurological symptoms - we have to offer our own experiences and lived solutions to people and allow them to sift through it all and see what they haven't tried yet.

For me, I tried no HRT at all for 6 months. The symptoms continued. I tried P only. No difference. I tried phasing in very tiny slithers of patches. Didn't do anything.

So logically the only thing I hadn't tried was to increase E into a very decent range. As soon as I got it up into the 300s, there was a huge improvement in the symptoms - although they are still there in their much reduced way.

So it is all trial and error. But I caution against making any assumptions without trialling and erroring. I assumed I was sensitive to E and spent months and months slicing up patches - when really I just needed to go higher. Try none, try micro amounts - but also try a decent level which many doctors might not want to help to achieve. See what works best. But don't leave a stone unturned when things are this bad. 
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: CrispyChick on August 01, 2024, 09:41:09 PM
I hear you joziel.

Leave no stone unturned. Unfortunately we have to turn our own stones  >:( noone seems able to help.

I think my thinking is gilla has tried high dose E. But I could be completely wrong on that!  8)
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on August 02, 2024, 09:33:57 AM
Oh right, well if she has that's that. Unless that was a while ago. When I first started HRT, I seemed to be incredibly sensitive and my symptoms (at night, these weird neuro symptoms) got worse with each dose increase. My old low estrogen symptoms all went as soon as I started it, to be replaced by insomnia and these neuro symptoms. Which I hadn't had, before.

So of course I blamed it on the HRT and thought I couldn't tolerate estrogen and after spending an entire night awake in bed with my heart going 100bpm, shaking, I went to A&E - only to be told everything was normal and I should go to my GP.

I stopped the HRT, very sadly thinking I was going to have to face menopause without any HRT and all those low estrogen symptoms would come back - but at least I'd be able to sleep. Only to find that these night time symptoms and the insomnia didn't go away. So then I had all the low estrogen symptoms without HRT, PLUS all these night time symptoms....

So I restarted the HRT and this time it made no difference. Each dose increase seemed to have no effect. And then I discovered I wasn't absorbing it very well.

So I've no idea what the heck all that adds up to, except to say that my original assumption - that this was caused by estrogen and I couldn't tolerate it and would need to stop it - just wasn't right. I now think it's all caused by hormonal fluctuations, surges from ovaries, unpredictable hormones which are not working in a monthly cycle anymore - and their interaction with the brain. I live in hope I can find some flat-line decent level of estrogen which overrides most of this and that it will get better post-menopause....
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: AnonoMiss on September 01, 2024, 01:17:46 PM
Thanks all for your replies, much appreciated. I don't need to be told it's a rubbish cocktail, I'm well aware... it's come about through repeated bouts of severe hormonal insomnia over the last 5 years and because I can't get off any of them quickly - I have to taper down really slowly - so I get really low and then get another bout and go back to square one. Up until recently I was on very low doses of the Amitriptyline and Mirtazapine, it was only the Trazodone that was at a normal starting dose. But since this bout - which has been worse than I've ever known - I've been desperately trying to fix it and so have put up my Mirtazapine, but it's not seemed to work.

In terms of patches - I know I absorb more transdermally of all things than most and patches have a high variability of absorption between women, so I do think I was getting a notable amount from it... I certainly would feel it if I reduced or took it off (or increased it even slightly). But my Estrogen levels from the weekend's blood test don't really support that there is anything wrong or unusual there since taking it off. My Progesterone level did come back at unusually low, even for the follicular phase at <0.2 nmol.

I'm already way past the stage of becoming addicted to benzos, I've been taking the valium for over a year. Honestly, all that matters right now is that I find a way to get out of this crisis and I will deal with all the tapering and resetting of meds etc later - I've never known anxiety this bad, for this long. It's something very physical going on in my body and nothing to do with anxious thoughts. I've lost over half a stone in weight in just one week, because I literally can't eat or sleep.

@Bombshell, funnily enough I did try Zoely for 3 months right at the beginning of my peri journey. It didn't have enough estrogen in at the time for me to control my night sweats and 3am insomnia, but I seemed to be going through something quite specific then and maybe it could be worth another shot. A hormonal monorail sounds like absolute bliss. The only thing is I'm on day 8 of my cycle now, so it would really need to wait until next month to start it.

@Mariab I have been on HRT for about 5 years and these meds for around the same time, but as I said I had got really low on most of them until this happened.

@CLKD that's reassuring to hear you didn't have insomnia on propranolol. The heart palpitations and ectopic beats are one of my worse symptoms, so maybe I should rely on my Atenolol more. I have requested another appointment with my psychiatrist this week but not sure when it will be. I just feel like I need some kind of strategy to get out of this immediate crisis and that he's not helping me with suggestions for that at all.

perhaps neurofeedback might help to stablise? Something like neuroptimal can be rented and done at home?

You didnt mention if you have histamine or gut issues (everone overlooks the affect they can have on anxiety)?

Also do you know about MTHFR and might you have that? Often low B vitamins and histamine can be and indicator and that can cause anxiety/excaserbate ADHD symptoms etc
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds - Zoely
Post by: Gilla999 on September 26, 2024, 07:33:15 AM
Ladies, I have just logged on for the first time in a while and seen your replies to my post. I'm sorry for going MIA, especially when you were kind enough to check how I was. I really was in a very dark place - a level of anxiety I've never experienced before - and I ended up just shutting down on life for a while. Ultimately what helped me get better was getting back onto my 1/4 patch and also adding very low dose BHRT Progesterone (during the follicular phase of my cycle). As always I can't be quite sure what was going on, but that combination seemed to help.

However the rollercoaster has in general continued and I can't seem to go for more than a week without insomnia, migraines, generally feeling very ill and all sorts of problems. Things have got worse instead of better since I started peri four years ago and I now feel at a crossroads with what to do. My quality of life has dwindled so much that I'm not able to work anymore, have lost all my friends because I'm never well enough to go out etc etc. I also can't start to reduce the horrible cocktail of antidepressants I'm on that can't be helping, when I keep having insomnia and being so ill all the time.

I think I am going to do as Bombshell suggested and try Zoely again. When I tried it four years ago prior to HRT, I had continued problems with it not being enough Estrogen to get rid of my classic low Estrogen night sweats and 3am insomnia (I read that on average it gives you a steady state of E of 130pmol ish, so hardly surprising!) but I am hoping that if I added a low dose HRT patch on top (which I know people do) it could help with this. I know it takes months to settle though, so don't expect it to be plain sailing, but feel like i can't continue the way I am and need something to reduce the extreme fluctuations I'm getting.

I'd love to hear from anyone that is on Zoely or any other contraceptive pills during Peri and if they've found any improvement.

Thanks again ladies for all of your support - it really means a lot x
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 26, 2024, 05:22:42 PM
If you haven't tried a much higher dose Gilla, then you may well need that rather than the Zoely pill. Unless you need a contraceptive, HRT is a much better choice than Zoely and will give you the option to increase beyond fixed amounts of progestin and estrogen. I can't see that helping you, it is inflexible.

It sounds like your symptoms and situation is severe enough to make it well worth spending £240 on a private menopause consultation and really getting some expert input into what could help you. You can usually get any meds prescribed on the NHS (except for testosterone) so once you've had that consultation, there shouldn't be a further cost for a year. Unless you need to change products or dosages frequently...
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 26, 2024, 06:16:14 PM
Thanks Joziel, appreciate the reply. How are you doing these days? I've paid hundreds of pounds to speak to meno consultants over the last couple of years and no one has really been able to figure out why I'm having a particularly bad time of it. I have been told that I probably went on too much HRT too soon and then caused problems for myself further down the line, but who knows.

For the last year I've been under the care of a really good NHS meno doc that I see every few months. Unfortunately increasing Estrogen isn't the answer for me - my Estrogen levels are actually generally high, and I feel much worse when I try to increase my patch. Perimenopause is characterised by high Estrogen and dwindling Progesterone, a very different situation to when your Estrogen levels tail off as you stop ovulating regularly. The huge peaks and troughs that are typical of perimenopause are what are causing me so many problems, in either direction! Zoely would switch off ovulation as a result of the daily progestin, so at least I hope minimise those big swings. The only other option at the moment on the table from my consultant is chemical menopause and add back HRT at a steady level, so again minimising the swings... Zoely is sort of a gentler version to try first. Curious if anyone else in peri has found either the POP or other pills to be of any use!
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 26, 2024, 06:56:37 PM
Oh right.... Can you give some kind of summary of your history, what you've tried and what happened? It's hard to know what to suggest otherwise.

The thing is... Yes, the peaks and troughs of peri cause a lot of symptoms. But that doesn't mean that adding more E always makes things worse. Because it can even out the troughs so you never dip too low. I'm in peri with a really hard time of it (especially at night) and getting my E up is really helping although I'm not symptom-free yet. (I am sleeping better but still not getting much deep sleep, according to both my Apple Watch and my own feeling of how rested I am when I wake up. I feel like I am constantly trying to keep myself under. I am also lightly inner tremor-ing all night. But all this is much better than it was before I increased the E.) But I get that things might be different for you because we are all so individual with this.

I can say, though, that I did try desogestrel (POP) early on in all this, whilst also on HRT - and it did nothing for these symptoms. I had been on it for 10 years before all this started and before I began HRT (to control endo) so when I began to get some endo pains whilst on HRT, I temporarily went back on the POP whilst also on the HRT to help dial all that down again until I could get in with my Newson doctor. Then I was told to increase utrogestan and come off the desogestrel again - which I did and the increase in utrogestan worked with the endo. But I noticed no change to these horrible night time symptoms whilst I was on the desogestrel POP. Which, as you know, does prevent ovulation and make the ovaries more dormant.

I'm so exhausted at the moment with a very deep kind of fatigue. It seems to be about both not being able to sleep properly/deeply, plus I came off thyroid meds about 3 weeks ago so my thyroid function probably still isn't great yet - but hopefully is going to recover over the next few weeks before my 6wks off it bloods are done(!). (Going on thyroid meds was yet another thing I tried to address these night time symptoms, but they didn't help at all. They did speed my metabolism up and I discovered I previously had high rT3 due to not eating properly and regularly. I've fixed all that so I am now hoping to get normal thyroid results including rT3 in a few weeks so I can draw a line under all this thyroid stuff!!)

I'm now on 200mcg Estradot patches and 6 pumps of Oestrogel plus I couldn't bring myself to throw out the Sandrena I tried (I seemed not to absorb it and got really bad after just a few days of it) so I add a sachet of Sandrena in, every morning  ;D (I'm supposed to be able to be on 8-10 pumps of gel but I don't think I can absorb more than 6 pumps as my bloods on 6 were the same as on 12 pumps of gel.) Plus 300mg of utrogestan almost continuously with a 5 day break to allow a bleed. Currently no unscheduled bleeding, no endo, no sore boobs - no high E symptoms really. I need to get bloods redone in a few weeks and that will be interesting, but decided to prioritise the (private) thyroid bloods and focus on that first....
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 28, 2024, 07:47:35 AM
I think it shows just how much variation there is among women with absorption - I'd literally die taking that much HRT as I seem to absorb so much (via the skin, not so sure about oral). Even increasing to a full 25 patch makes me feel very, very ill and gave me urticaria/insomnia/all sorts (but then I am still ovulating every month so have a substantial amount of my own Estrogen too). You can sort of understand why even menopause specialists struggle to come up with a suggested path, because there is just so much variability on what works for different women.

I'd imagine coming off thyroid meds will definitely have an impact on lots of bodily functions including sleep, so hopefully once your body adjusts to being off those things will improve for you with the sleep and fatigue. Keeping fingers crossed for you that things start to improve soon!
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 28, 2024, 06:00:39 PM
Thanks yes, things are already much better -  I think due to the increased E.

I am also still ovulating, at least, I was last year because I bought some ovulation pee test things which test the LH peak to find out - and it said I was...
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: bombsh3ll on September 28, 2024, 06:08:10 PM
The advantage of Zoely (or any combined pill) is that it shuts your own cycle down completely so you are not constantly chasing after your body's erratic production of hormones.

I take it primarily for menstrual suppression, and do not need contraception. I skip the withdrawal bleeds and have had no bleeding at all in 2.5 years on it.

It gives you a stable consistent low level of estrogen that if needed you can then tailor as required with additional transdermal patch or gel (I am aware some specialists are doing this but doubt the NHS would prescribe it).

The progestin is NOMAC, one of the kindest with very little off target actions and is very potent at protecting the endometrium, so theoretically could support the estrogen being topped up however your specialist may require monitoring of the endometrium as this is non-standard.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 28, 2024, 06:53:31 PM
Thanks Bombshell - my NHS meno specialist is aware / would be supervising so all good there.

I agree on the progestin - when I tried it previously I had almost zero side effects, having been totally unable to tolerate any other synthetic progestin my entire life. It was only that I kept periodically suffering from low Estrogen symptoms that I gave up, not realising I could top up with a low dose HRT.

One question I have - last time around I felt very much like my own cycle wasn't being fully suppressed, because I would have bad low E symptoms (accompanied by cramps) regularly every 3-4 weeks, which is the same situation I had when ovulating. I lasted for 3 months of packs and then gave up because of it. Did you find there was a bedding in period of how long it took for your own cycle to be suppressed when you started it? In retrospect I've wondered if taking the 4 day break instead of going straight through might have helped my body get into more of a rhythm sooner.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 29, 2024, 11:32:30 AM
Interesting bombshell. Gilla, let us know how it goes. Maybe you should try the added estrogen to help with the low E symptoms every 3-4 weeks if you get those again?

However you might not get them on Zoely, because it is body identical. The previous pill you took I don't think was Zoely? So it wouldn't have been body identical and it wouldn't have been able to replace E for all the bodily processes that E is needed for. But hopefully with Zoely you won't have that issue as it is body identical...
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 29, 2024, 01:23:14 PM
Hi Joziel - yes it was Zoely I tried previously. According to the studies I've read the average steady state of Estrogen while on it is circa 130 pmol, which is relatively low. When I went onto it previously I was already suffering from cyclical terrible low Estrogen (in my luteal phase only) so it's not totally surprising to think reducing my overall average Estrogen levels would have caused me to still be symptomatic! Though why it was only every 3-4 weeks I'm unsure and does indicate maybe I was still having my own hormonal fluctuations, but it's possible 3 months just isn't enough time for it to fully steady your own hormones. I think knowing now that I can top up with HRT (whether permanently or when needed as you say) I hope to stand a better chance of it helping. The fact I'm now starting it from a place of not having suffered from low Estrogen issues for ages is also a positive thing.

I think the trickiest bit is going to be getting on it in the first place, as any hormonal increase or decrease of either Estrogen or Progesterone causes terribly allergy symptoms in me since Covid (might just be a coincidence) which is a big part of my overall issues. Hopefully I'll be able to bear the initial hump!

Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: bombsh3ll on September 29, 2024, 01:56:39 PM
Gilla were you taking the 4 yellow placebo pills in the pack of Zoely?

That would certainly explain feelings of low estrogen every 3-4 weeks.

I pop them out and bin them at the start so that I don't accidentally take them.

I went straight from 2*cerazette daily onto Zoely so I can't speak to how long it would have taken to shut me down.

I had lost access to my previous combined pill during the pandemic and could only get cerazette for a while. One of those daily did nothing for me, I continued to bleed monthly and developed a hormonally active cyst on it with estradiol of 7000 pmol/L. I then went onto a double dose daily for a couple of months which completely stopped my periods and allowed the cyst to resolve.

My estradiol level right before switching to Zoely was around 100pmol/L and my ovaries were really quiet on ultrasound, no follicular activity.

I was actually comfortable physically and psychologically on double desogestrel and not suffering in any way from the low estrogen, however I chose to go back on a combined pill as I was not happy to live long term with low estrogen for health reasons.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 29, 2024, 03:32:16 PM
Thanks for confirming Bombshell - I guess we were / are in quite different states going into it then as my Estrogen levels are consistently high, but I'm still hopeful that I'll be able to top up with HRT and not have problems from the drop. No, I never took the placebo pills, I went straight through on active pills. The bouts of terrible night sweats and 3am insomnia that I got every 3-4 weeks (my classic low Estrogen issues) were always accompanied by cramps too, so it really did feel like my body was periodically trying to do something. Maybe if I would have taken the placebo pills it would have got more into a rhythm and avoided that, or maybe 3 months just wasn't long enough to shut down my own ovarian function entirely. Time will tell - I can only give it a try and hope for the best! Thanks very much for all the advice xx
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 29, 2024, 03:33:36 PM
Wise bombshell... I was on desogestrel for about 8 years after my laparoscopy for endo, with the goal of suppressing the endo. It worked. I did bleed slow brown sludge for what felt like ages but then it stopped finally and I hardly ever bled at all and when I did it was incredibly light. I did several times worry about the low estrogen levels on it but I never got my levels checked. I was on just the one dose of 75mcg, not double dose.

Before desogestrel I had tried to go back to the levonorgestrel POP which is what I'd been on for another 10 years earlier in my life without any problems. But on that one I just bled and bled and bled constantly for months and it really didn't stop. I preferred that one because I thought it shut down my own ovaries less and would leave me with more estrogen as a result. But I couldn't use it. No idea why it worked so well earlier in my life but then I couldn't stop bleeding on it when I went back to it. I really did give it ages, like 8 months or something!!

Gilla, I think I'm not sure why you want to try Zoely rather than oral HRT? (If that's the way you want to go.) I mean, the estrogen in the Zoely isn't high dose and you suspect you will need to take more. Is it just to get access to the progestin? Is that not available as a separate progestin for HRT purposes by itself?

And if you get allergy symptoms, have you investigated histamine intolerance and the work of Dr Tina Peers? Sorry if I've mentioned that to you before...
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 30, 2024, 08:02:28 AM
Yes that's why Joziel - the progestin in Zoely is the newest generation which was virtually side effect free when I tried it before, where as I've never been able to tolerate any other synthetic contraceptive pills. I tried the whole range when needing contraception in my 20s and early 30s and couldn't tolerate any - Zoely was very different. I would also prefer to take the bio identical form of Estrogen contained in Zoely rather than Ethinyl Estradiol contained in all other birth control pills (except for Qlaira). It is safer and again has less side effects.

I'm very familiar with Tina Peers but haven't actually ever seen her - I was under the came of Immunology at Guys & St Thomas's for about a year before being discharged. I don't have a lot of the markers of Histamine Intolerance (did quite a lot of reading up) it does just seem to be some kind of allergy connected to / triggered by hormone changes. I was fine for the first year on HRT but it all started two days after the Covid booster and worsened after Covid. It has now improved to a point where it's mostly manageable, so I'm just hoping Zoely doesn't trigger a flare up  ;D
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 30, 2024, 04:03:11 PM
Well good luck and let us know how it goes. It sounds like a good plan if you need that progestin, even if you also need a couple ultrasounds because you want to add extra estrogen in. Hope you've found the answer for you...
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: bombsh3ll on September 30, 2024, 05:59:34 PM
My estradiol on Zoely is 390pmol/L.

Bearing in mind I was producing 100pmol/L endogenously despite a suppressive dose of desogestrel.

Assuming a similar level of endogenous production with the suppression achieved by the progestin in Zoely, this gives me 290pmol/L from the 1.5mg of oral estradiol it contains.

Obviously this can vary between peaks and troughs over 24,hours but I've had a few tests with very consistent results.

Data on thrombosis risk is also very reassuring.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on September 30, 2024, 06:22:41 PM
That's interesting and actually reassuring Bombshell - that kind of level would mean I'd need to top up much less. As you say I realise every lady is individual though.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: joziel on September 30, 2024, 08:02:38 PM
Pretty good. More than I was getting from 12 pumps of gel. 3x the max licensed dose. SHOCK HORROR.

It's such bollocks.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: bombsh3ll on October 01, 2024, 10:18:21 AM
I believe there is far more individual variability in absorption and metabolism of most drugs tbh than the manufacturers admit or even know about, and certainly more than prescribers assume.
Title: Re: Come off HRT - advice/experience with anti anxiety meds
Post by: Gilla999 on October 01, 2024, 03:39:45 PM
1000% agree with that statement Bombshell. I've scoured many reports on medications and the trials relating to various medications (I always like to do thorough research before starting anything) but they only ever provide an average blood level, they don't detail how much variation there is from that average. Joziel I have the opposite problem from you in that transdermally I absorb so much more than the average person, and it annoys me when people mock me for my 1/4 of a 25 patch. I know from many experiments that I get about 200pmol from that, which is way way more than the average given. I also absorb much more Progesterone transdermally than normal - I read in a couple of studies that that's normal - if you're a high or low absorber it's of everything, not just one thing