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Menopause Discussion => All things menopause => Topic started by: Nik2502 on November 07, 2022, 07:49:49 AM

Title: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Nik2502 on November 07, 2022, 07:49:49 AM
Morning

I’m sorry to post again but I just don’t know what to do with myself. I hate living like this.

I’m anxious, low, tearful, scared. Is this my life from now?

I’m 52 and on 150 oestrogen, 5mg Provera and Androfemme.

I just don’t know what to do with myself. I’m scared to go to sleep as the mornings are the worst. I’ve taken two lots of propranolol through the night to limited effect.

Im seeing my GP on Thursday but she just wants me to have more antidepressants.
I’m supposed to have a review with Newson this month but I’ve lost so many days work I can’t afford it.

Don’t really want anything from you lovely ladies just a little reassurance.

Love
Nik xx
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Dotty on November 07, 2022, 08:12:07 AM
Hi hope your GP can help you x
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: jaypo on November 07, 2022, 08:55:48 AM
Hi there,so sorry you're feeling so bad,anxiety is the pits, I can't comment on HRT but I know it does need tweaked,I've tried two lots of ADs and couldn't stand either of them,symptoms were so much worse,I know you've to give them time but if it's unbearable,it's easier said than done.Sounds like you need to see someone who is a meno specialist,Newson is good  :)
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Perinowpost on November 07, 2022, 09:01:08 AM
Nik2502

So sorry to hear how you are feeling. Do you think your oestrogen could be too high? It’s a long shot but I’ve seen it time and again on here where doses get increased and it rarely seems to help. Too much oestrogen can be as problematic as too little.

 Also are you taking androfem every day? A solution might be to cut back to every other day.

Hoping you feel better soon x
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: VanillaLover on November 07, 2022, 10:22:54 AM
So sorry you feel like this. It is so awful isn’t it. Just sending hugs and strength really
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: CLKD on November 07, 2022, 10:41:58 AM
MayB keep threads to one so that responses don't get lost  :-\.  Meno-brain here can't keep up with what has been suggested!
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Flossieteacake on November 07, 2022, 10:57:16 AM
I am so sorry you are struggling so much. I just want to let you know I am thinking of you. I hope the appointment goes well.
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Ayesha on November 07, 2022, 11:27:33 AM
Hi Nik2502
Life keeps throwing curve balls at us and we are supposed to cope with it all, it's not easy that's for sure.

I am having a colonoscopy tomorrow and today I am supposed to drink that disgusting gunk they give you, I will be trying very hard not to spew it all up because the anxiety is making me feel very nauseous. 

I hope what you are going through is a phase in your life that will eventually improve, it usually does.

Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Bindi on November 07, 2022, 11:39:22 AM
Hi nik2502
What we are all going thru is sadly normal from what i can gather..as im knew to.. im 59 post meno and ive been following this forum for roughly 2yrs now..sometimes i think less is more..its complicated i know  but maybe we dont need as much hrt as the next person..im only on ovestin vaginaly in side and out..i find its enough but also think i could do with a little something else.im seeing my gp again next week about tibolone..but if i carnt get a low dose i dont think i will have it..as much as my bones are painful,and headaces, my other issues are doing ok i guess...so maybe you are getting to much hrt..something to think about hun..but gd luck..we are all on a slippery slope i think as we are all different 😉
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: CLKD on November 07, 2022, 12:45:34 PM
Good Luck Ayesha .......... that 'gunk' should have gone out of fashion by now  >:(

How do u feel as the day goes by Nik2502?
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Flossieteacake on November 07, 2022, 01:14:09 PM
Hi Nik2502
Life keeps throwing curve balls at us and we are supposed to cope with it all, it's not easy that's for sure.

I am having a colonoscopy tomorrow and today I am supposed to drink that disgusting gunk they give you, I will be trying very hard not to spew it all up because the anxiety is making me feel very nauseous. 

I hope what you are going through is a phase in your life that will eventually improve, it usually does.

I wish you all the best with the colonoscopy. I remember what that horrid prep tastes like. I hope you can have something nice to take the taste away afterwards.
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Nik2502 on November 07, 2022, 01:18:52 PM
Hi

I feel better before I go to bed! I’ve tried changing my hrt times but without success.

Thank you for all your kind words.

Nik xx

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Good Luck Ayesha .......... that 'gunk' should have gone out of fashion by now  >:(

How do u feel as the day goes by Nik2502?
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Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: discogirl on November 07, 2022, 01:32:30 PM
Morning

I’m sorry to post again but I just don’t know what to do with myself. I hate living like this.

I’m anxious, low, tearful, scared. Is this my life from now?

I’m 52 and on 150 oestrogen, 5mg Provera and Androfemme.

I just don’t know what to do with myself. I’m scared to go to sleep as the mornings are the worst. I’ve taken two lots of propranolol through the night to limited effect.

Im seeing my GP on Thursday but she just wants me to have more antidepressants.
I’m supposed to have a review with Newson this month but I’ve lost so many days work I can’t afford it.

Don’t really want anything from you lovely ladies just a little reassurance.

Love
Nik xx

Hi Nik2502

I don't know much about hrt but I have learned one thing from this site and that is too much is as bad as too little.

I just wanted to send you love and hugs really as well and just wanted you to know that you're in my thoughts.

I really hope you get this sorted soon.

 xxxx
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Epona52 on November 07, 2022, 04:48:45 PM
Hi Nik2502,
So sorry to hear your feeling like this and I totally sympathize with you, I am the same age as you and going through exactly the same thing 😢,  I was offered antidepressants but I won't go on them as can't tolerate the side effects, you could ask your gp if you could try some beta blockers they are very good for anxiety especially the meno related anxiety, I also find when increasing estrogen in any form I get increasing anxiety that can be especially bad when I'm tired, like you the mornings are awful, I'm struggling to understand why some women suffer so bad with this symptom while others breeze through it, I live in hope that this will eventually get better ad that's all we can do, it's just so hard to cope with so I really do feel your pain,
Sending a hug, good luck with the gp
X
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Epona52 on November 07, 2022, 04:52:59 PM
So sorry just re read and noticed your taking beta blockers, maybe ask for a different one, I'm on bisoprolol, we shouldn't have to suffer like this,
X
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Epona52 on November 07, 2022, 05:18:36 PM
Hi
Just wanted to mention I cut out all caffeine too,
I hope you have some luck with gp and newson, please keep us updated, my gp said I could increase my estrogen gel to 5 pumps if need be but i hate the increasing anxiety that comes with it, I sometimes wonder if coming off everything would be better but I'm not brave enough to try!
X
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Nas on November 07, 2022, 05:43:36 PM
Sorry you feel so awful. If it’s any consolation, I feel horrendous first thing in the morning. Nothing but nothing sorts my anxiety and I could quite happily jump under my duvet and stay there.

What helps us getting out of bed and eating a little. Then I shower and take CBD oil. It kind of gives me a ‘ lift’ and somehow I make it into work and get through the day. It’s tough when you feel down I know.

You are not alone x
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: Nik2502 on November 08, 2022, 08:54:00 AM
Thank you from the bottom of my heart for all your kind words and advice.

I really appreciate each and every one of you xx
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: sweettooth on November 08, 2022, 12:15:41 PM
So sorry Nik I’m the same and I don’t know what the answer is.  I just wish there was a clear indication of being on too much or too little.  It’s awful everyday.  I hope your apt goes well❤️
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: jaypo on November 08, 2022, 01:15:02 PM
Keep fighting Nik,you're not alone,some mornings I struggle to get out of bed and just want to pull the duvet over me but hopefully it will pass,we're tough old birds on here,keep going xx
Title: Re: Feeling worse not better
Post by: discogirl on November 08, 2022, 03:47:49 PM
You will get over this Nik2502 and we really are all in this together on this forum xxx