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Title: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: Kazbear on May 01, 2016, 08:17:45 AM
Morning all,

I was feeling calmer yesterday, despite my wobbly legs, but this overnight panic has set in.  The weird feeling in my head when I close my eyes and try and sleep, like something "misses" and I feel sick, and then I came out of a dream this morning crying my eyes out saying I didn't want to die, with Paul shaking me and shouting that I wouldn't die - he was so upset.

God this is awful.  I feel so low and shakey.  I can't believe I haven't got something seriously wrong me with, and that this is all in my head.  It's a beautiful day here, and we are going out to lunch with friends, and all I want to do is crawl up in a ball under the duvet.

I can't go running back to the doctors again, but I do have to phone him this week to update him about my Sertraline so I will tell him then.

Sorry peeps, just needed to let everyone know.
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: walking the dog on May 01, 2016, 08:34:26 AM
Sorry to hear your feeling so low and anxious, anxiety is,a terrible thing and with hormones up and down it can be a struggle. Hang in there and be kind to yourself , do what you can when you can and dont push yourself too hard.Do you think the sertraline is helping ? At one point at my worse I saw my gp everyday for weeks if I hadn't I dont know where iwould be now, so if you need to see him then do .
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: MIS71MUM on May 01, 2016, 08:35:07 AM
Oh no poor you.

How long have you been on Sertraline for and a what dose?
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: Kazbear on May 01, 2016, 08:51:17 AM
Hi there

Only been on the Sertraline for a week, and a 25mg dose once a day.  Both my doctor and the nurse at A & E said that the anxiety would get worse before it gets better.  As I say, I did feel calmer yesterday, but then I got a pain in my back and it started all the "what if" feelings again, culminating in the blind panic last night.

It's the anxiety that is fuelling the physical symptoms, but I know that they won't go until I get the anxiety sorted.  it's a vicious circle.

Everyone says that I overthink things, and that is very true.  I am trying desperately to stay calm and not worry but it's so difficult which your mind is going off into all directions.  Realistically, I know that I will get through this, especially now that I have found the support of the lovely ladies on this forum, but it's really difficult right now to see the wood for the trees.

Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: CLKD on May 01, 2016, 12:02:31 PM
Get Paul to sit with you and practice deep breathing together.  i.e. sharp breath in through the nose; count 1, 2, 3, 4, 5 before letting the breath out as slowly as possible.  Repeat 3 times.  Rest.

Your mind is uneasy so busy dreams are expected.  It will pass!  Your mind starts chuntering to itself and away the anxiety goes, bugga  :-X.  Let the Sertraline do it's work, practice the deep breathing and this too will pass.
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: Miss Lemon on May 01, 2016, 02:16:56 PM
I'm so sorry that you're going through this Kazbear.

I could have written the exact same post a few years ago. I can remember shaking in bed and being unable to sleep in high anxiety and crying with my husband because I was sure I was going to die. Needless to say, I haven't died and I don't get that horrendous level of anxiety anymore.

As others have said, it will pass. The breathing technique that CKLD has recommended is a really good way to calm down immediately. Another helpful tip is to say the mantra 'thoughts are not facts'. This is your anxiety talking so don't listen to it.

Trust me, it will go away.

Big hugs and stay strong.
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: Kazbear on May 01, 2016, 09:45:26 PM
Thank you all for your warm and helpful replies.  I'm pleased to say that we did go out to lunch with our friends, and had a lovely afternoon and evening which helped to take my mind off things.  Hopefully will get a good night's sleep (a couple of glasses of wine have helped LOL!) and things will be a bit calmer tomorrow.
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: MIS71MUM on May 01, 2016, 09:53:13 PM
I'd stick with the Sertraline....I'm afraid that you will feel worse before you feel better. But that's a sign that the medication will work.

I'm speaking from personal experience, I kept starting different AD's and stopping them before giving anything a chance to work. But the problem was, I wasn't going to get better without an AD.  So in the end, I had to grin and bear my 3rd AD until the side effects wore off....and they did. I just wish I'd stuck to my first AD it would have made things much easier for me.

I overthink everything and anything, so I know exactly where you are coming from.
Title: Re: Hi there - Still panicky
Post by: Justjules on May 03, 2016, 12:35:49 PM
Hi Kazbear - I am going through terrible shakes and trembling limbs at the moment.  I am back on Citalopram after a year's break but never got these symptoms before so I'm fretting it's something sinister.  I just have awful adrenaline pumping through me constantly with a racing heart.  Don't want to do anything but stuck here at work and feel like running away it's that bad. 

Glad you managed to get out - I do that and usually feel better for it but it's very hard.  Had to go to a wedding on Sunday night and had a panic just on way back to car.  So cross about it and don't tell hubby as he thinks I'm mental!  At least you have a wonderful supportive OH - like gold.  Lucky you. xxx