Menopause Matters Forum
Menopause Discussion => Personal Experiences => Topic started by: Tealady12 on August 30, 2015, 08:35:07 AM
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Morning Lovely Ladies
Not posted for a while as been in the thick of school holidays, but been on the usual cyclical anxiety etc etc roller coaster over the last couple of months. Feeling particularly awful at the moment and just wanted to thank all of you ladies who just know and understand ... It is a massive comfort to come onto the forum and be reassured that 'No, I'm not going completely mad, it's my blinking hormones!! ' Is the mirena and Evorel 75 patch enough if I still get these horrible feelings?
I'd just like to feel OK for more than a couple of weeks at a time...my lovely GP left the my local practice last year but was back a few months ago as a locum and I was lucky enough to see him...He said that I'm in what he describes as the rough seas at the moment....Thought that was a very apt description, up and down, clinging to the life raft, then it get's calmer and I can see land, feel more grounded....then oh no off you go again... Up, down, hanging on, getting further from the shore ....
Am clinging on really tightly right now!! Anyway, thanks so much ladies... You'll help me through another day on the raft... a light on the shore, giving hope that this will pass...
Best Wishes to you all
Tealady xxx
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Sorry you are feeling bad, it will pass.
I loved your description of the raft on the seas, very true. Hope you are sailing on calmer waters soon :)
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Hi Tealady 12
You sound exactly like me! I wake with a thumping heart at the moment and sometimes the anxiety is overwhelming. I have no particular reason to feel like this though I can easily convince myself I do if i dwell on things. Sometimes the fear (yes it does feel like pure fear at times) leaves me taking big breathes of air to calm down.
Yet a few weeks ago I was on holiday perfectly well, did the longest zipwire in Europe, ran around on the beach, made meals for a large family. What changed? Nothing, it's horrible how it just creeps up. Hoping it creeps away again soon. Do you feel better as day goes on? I can feel fairly normal by early evening which is such a relief.
Hugs to you, sending you some oars for that raft! xxx
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Thanks Toffeecushion and Jedigirl
Hopefully calmer waters will be here soon Toffeecushion...but of course in my current anxious state, I think what if they never are?? Now chanting to myself...thoughts aren't fact, thoughts aren't fact..it will pass...
Pure fear is absolutely it Jedigirl, this horrible feeling of doom that something awful is about to happen...and yes, I can be pootling along quite well and in it creeps and loiters around for a few days...always always worse on waking, pounding heart, dry mouth and yes often then feeling a little better by the evening..thanks for the oars too!
As I'm on Mirena and Evorel 75 patch I have no idea of my cycle anymore...do I feel like this when I would be premenstrual or when I would be having a period? ..Who knows hey?
Thank you again ladies xxx
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Hi Tealady, that is an excellent description of how things are. These feelings are rubbish.
sorry cant help you as not taking anything just now, awaiting some tests and just joined a new GP practice in the hope I can get a life raft real soon.
Also to agree with how great this forum is.
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Awww tealady :hug: I'm also hanging on for dear life at the moment, isn't it strange how things seem a little better by evening? I think in my case it's because I know I don't have to do anything/go anywhere ::)
I'm taking my monthly course of utrogestan at the moment and although I'm taking it vaginally to minimise awful side effects it's still making me feel awful and lashing out at poor hubby :-\ he knows what to expect but he's finding it hard this time as I haven't taken it fir a few months.
Your description of the anxiety is spot on! It would be so much easier to cope with if we knew when to expect it ::)
Keep hanging on to that raft ;)
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Thank you all ladies xx
Been awake a while with the palpitations and dry mouth, feeling rubbish, but just trying to focus on the hope that it will ease again as the day goes on..you could very well be right with the pressure off towards the end of the day helping the anxiety Sparkle - I do try to tell myself that I got through the day and can soon crawl into bed!
Keep hanging on Estelle, it's so horrible isn't it? I tried Utrogestan right at the start of my HRT journey and 3-4 days in I would feel so low and would keep crying and shaking out of the blue...but never tried it vaginally - didn't know you could do that do be honest! It obviously affects everyone so differently..
Do hope a new GP can help you soon Sad Lynda and you can start to feel better again. It is rubbish you are right, I'm so fed up of this now.. Fingers crossed that your life raft is there for you soon and the rough seas become calmer...
Thanks again Ladies
Hope we all get through today as best we can.
Xxx