Another newbie here...so glad I found this site! 😁
I'm 57 and have not had a period for 2 years. My menopause journey has been mainly symptom free, apart from some insomnia and the odd bit of brain fog, but a few weeks ago I had all my old pms symptoms - sore breasts, tired, bloating, egg-white mucus, mild abdo tenderness - then 10 or so days later I had a small amount of light blood on the toilet paper. This lasted, off and on, for 4 days (only when wiping, nothing else) which is how long my periods used to last and not had anything since. I'm hoping with it only lasting my usual time span it's just one last hormonal hurrah and that'll be it!!
Have never been on any hrt, never had penetrative sex with a man as I'm gay, never had children, do have mild POP but have a strong pelvic floor (according to my Gynaecological Physio) which keeps it mainly in check, suffer from hypomobility of my sacroiliac joints and stuck thoracic ribs which both give me chronic daily pain ... yay! 🥳 Only ever had 2 smear tests as the first one was extremely painful and left me bleeding for a week, the second (10 yrs ago!) was the same and my Doc said that, as my internal muscles were so tight, she couldn't even manage to insert the smallest speculum to open things up and could barely collect any cells for testing but what little she could see looked fine; luckily there were just enough cells and the results came back normal. Due to the awfulness of these two smears, she suggested I not have any more as even trying would just have the same difficulties.
I suffer from Generalised Anxiety Disorder, Social Anxiety Disorder, Panic Disorder, Depression and not had the best time of it this past year with ridiculous amounts of stress, worry & anxiety and now this bleed is hugely adding to it!!! 😰 My absolute freaking out issue is the history of cancer deaths in my family - Dad, Mum, 3 Grandparents, aunties, uncles, cousins etc. even most of my friends too (54 funerals to date), I'm totally alone almost 24/7 and have nobody to talk to or turn to for help 😭
Need to contact my Docs, but my anxieties and panic attacks are making it so difficult because I know any invasive tests will need a GA, or not be done as per the smears, which panics me too... but I WILL do it!! Any reassurance and calmness sent my way would be very much appreciated!
Growing older may be a privilege, but for women it comes with so many crappy health issues!!! 🙄🤦♀️
Thanks and sorry for the long post!