44, still regular though spotting for longer and longer before and after period.
I’ve always had a short cycle (23-24 days) and don’t ovulate till day 16/17, so have always had a short luteal phase.
I’m considering HRT but am worried because I seem to be opposite to most. The time from the end of my period to ovulation (follicular phase) is by far my worst time - I feel a bit better in the run-up to my period, when most people feel awful. Worried that if I feel worst when estrogen is rising, more of it may be the last thing I need?!
To be precise, I only feel fully like myself just after ovulation, and at start of period. Couple of days each time. It feels like I’m only really OK when hormones aren’t changing much, no matter whether they’re low or high?!
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Symptoms, starting with the worst:
Crippling anxiety from when I wake up to late afternoon, almost every day. Only goes away for 2 days at ovulation and 2 days at start of period. Worse from end of period to ovulation than in luteal phase. But I’m a COMPLETELY different person most of the month. This has been going on for 15 MONTHS! It started out of nowhere Jan 2024 with two weeks during follicular of extreme agitation and anxiety, only sleeping 1-2 hours a night, and unable to eat due to nausea. It’s not been that severe since thankfully, but the anxiety is ridiculous and feels fully physical.
Doom/fear/uncontrollable crying and thinking I need to run away from my life. Only between period and ovulation again.
Cardio workouts that used to make me feel on top of the world now seem to be followed by a massive mood crash (lots of tears and doom) a couple of hours later?!
So, so much less energy than I used to have. Doing far less and still exhausted.
Feeling chilled to the bone during evenings (around period only).
Feeling hot in the early hours (daily), but no night sweats yet.
Burning sore facial flushing (constant).
Thumping palpitations and skipped beats (around period only).
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GP is happy for me to try HRT and usually tries people on Evorel first.
Did anyone else feel this way and have HRT help them?
Should I be considering the pill instead of HRT - would that lead to steadier hormones?
I’m terrified of either HRT or the pill because I’ve never reacted well to having my hormones altered. Tried several types of pill when I was young and gave up, and was suicidal during IVF treatment from the hormones - it was so bad we only tried one cycle.
I’m just worried my symptoms may suggest hormones are swinging too high rather than too low, and HRT will add fuel to the fire. I don’t have the classic hot flushes, night sweats, insomnia yet.
It’s been 15 months of completely altered mental state. I’m unrecognisable compared to the person I was before.
