Hi Kittyjay, as someone else in their early 40s having problems, like Millykin, I wanted to send a sympathetic hug your way.
I am one of these unusual people who, like you, prefers the Utrogestan 12 days to estrogen only (which seems to leave me flat). I too am considering Qlaira, as someone else suggested, as my own hormones are having random surges. Have a look at Pixiegirl's post on this - I found it really useful. I can't take the CCP due to migraines with aura and family history of early stroke, but GP said she would prescribe Qlaira as she still thinks it is in my benefit. Perhaps being a smoker, you might fall into same category? Not sure how I feel about this, so currently waiting for HRT to settle (only in week 7).
Like you, I am also wondering if maybe my 50mg patches need to be stronger as currently day three of my bleed and literally overnight, my skin's terrible, nails splitting, exhausted, tearful and aching. However, fear of nausea /headaches is preventing me from upping it yet. Would be interested to hear what others think B x
ps Enjoy Christmas with your children if you can - they make it special; when you're childless and OH is working 100 miles away for most of it, it's not half as magic (and that's even with behaving hormones!). Luckily my cats keep me company and appreciate lie ins as much as I do